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Life - n. pl. lives (lvz)

2005-03-21T16:45:00.000+10:00

The usual day of my life.
Life - n. pl. lives (lvz)

Define life:
Life is awake at
0700 wake up, follow with ironing,
0720 breakfast
0745 shower and get ready to work
0800 leave home
0810 still in the jam
0815 on freeway
0820 reach office, make hot drinks
0830 start working
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1630 check time (realize still 30min to go)
1645 deciding whether I should start packing or do more work?
1655 check time (5min to go)
1700 Time to go but always got last minute stuff
1720 in car, leaving office
1735 reach home
1740 scold brother if he is on computer game
1755 wash up and ready to study
1800 still not study yet…
1810 really studying but trying to thinking what I should eat for dinner
1820 still thinking about dinner
1840 decide to cook dinner at 1930
1900 felt hungry, telling myself still 30min to go
1930 cooking, get angry because no one help cooking
1935 start cooking and chopping
2000 forget cook rice
2010 almost ready for dinner
2030 dinner serve
2045 washing and cleaning
2100 back to study
2110 go toilet… pee
2130 still reading
2145 almost falling asleep
2200 do tutorial
2230 pack up before sleeping
2245 sleeping
2246 still trying to sleep
… dunno when I fall asleep
This is my life...!

Dunno what I up to... but definately I do the right thing...

2005-03-04T11:37:00.000+10:00

Dunno what I up to, but I think it definitely I do the right thing. I decided to do my study again. I want to do the professional paper, but I was not qualified to do so because during my uni day, I didn’t do some subjects which required admit to this CPA. Well, at that time, I wasn’t thinking that much what I am doing, what I want is to finish my uni and get myself start working. So, it doesn’t really matter what subject I take, as long as I graduate as BCom, that’s enough. Now, I really guilty for this steps, but is not too late yet. So, doing my external study at USQ on Graduate Certificate of Commerce.

There are 5 subjects that I need to finish before I qualified myself to CPA program, yah… how sad but I only have one goal to achieve this year, that is CPA program. I really looking forward to finish this GCCom, so hopefully I can get entry to next year enrolment.

This semester just 2 subjects, I don’t how stress going to be and these subjects really motivate me so hard that I just got to study every time I comes back from work. Beside baby sitting my brother Jason, I trying to have 3 – 4 hours of study every day except Wednesday, Thursday and Sunday. University required 20 hours per week per subjects for study, and I only have 16 hours per week… for 2 subjects. So, got to really study to fulfil my dream.

I was talking about baby sitting, yah, Jason is my 2nd youngest brother. He is study Mech Eng at UQ. He was so blur because he only arrived a night before his classes start on Monday. So, I was actually stress out for trying to explain how he get himself to uni, transport system at Brisbane, how the uni like, classes, tutorial, sign on classes, arrangement of timetable, where to eat, where to rest, where to bank, how to open bank account, how to make friends…. The list goes on and on…

Thank God that he is coping well with all my speeding train explanation. There are some parts that he did make mistake, but I guess this is just part of learning. For example, just that day, he actually walking back from indooroopilly bus station. He forgotten that if the bus can pick him up from the nearest bus stop, means he could just take the bus to the nearest bus stop… hai… And about text book, he just spent $400.00, gosh… it is expensive. He just buy all those book that mention in the course outline without checking whether the book is compulsory or reference only. So, end up he had a huge lesson from me. Yah… he did return some book and those books are reference. He could just make his reference at library, isn’t this how it is like if you are poor uni student?

I hope he will made himself proud as well as myself for able to finish his study and get himself BEng and qualified to Engineers Australia or Association of Professional Engineers, Scientists and Managers Australia

After Holiday

2005-01-20T01:37:00.000+10:00

After 3 weeks of holiday, I came back with fully recharge battery. Felt like a brand new beginning as I step myself in to Australia ground again. Felt so full of strength and power, that I am prepare to do all things.

Unfortunately, I am wrong. Oppss..! may be I am partly right. Today is 4th day since I back to Australia. Working has been really satisfied, because I able to catch all my work in just few days and of course it is good to catch up with friends who I have been seeing for 3 weeks, especially those we almost see each other, 3 weeks was a long time to pass.

So, now I am back, started my usual life again. Slowly there are many things to consider. Thinking about moving house, so now just busy looking for house. Taking my lunch break, trying to reach toowong in 10min to pick up Daniel for viewing the potential house. Beside that, I have to worry about my PR application and still awaiting my director for sponsorship. Church life not start yet, but can feel the pressure already, and also was busy with my brother tertiary education application at UQ. Finally today hand in his application, that really lighten my burden lots.

Well, whatever I can think off, all put in words already… but really hope that I have strength to continue press on this pressure… yes… pressure because I just wanna to get over it and all these required 100% concentration. If slightly side track…I may be pick and to be judge for not putting my effort…

Definitely need strength….

Recipe

2004-12-17T11:12:00.000+10:00

How to make a Alvin

Ingredients:

1 part competetiveness

5 parts humour

5 parts energy

Method:
Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of curiosity

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

7 sleeps left...

2004-12-16T19:54:00.000+10:00

Just another 7 sleeps, I am flying off back to Penang. I can’t explain how excited I am because this trip is so different. Since my grandma passed away, my family hardly see each other. We used to see each other at least once or twice a week, as now, probably not even once a month.

Although they do not contact me as frequently as my housemate family do, I still love my family. My parents hardly talks to me, can’t blame for their work and busy all the time. Sometime, I still prefer talking on phone rather then just type on screen in MSN windows. Be honest, I missed them so much.

My cousin, somehow they are excited too for the day when I touch down. If you ask me why few years ago why they excited, I really can’t tell. But if you ask me now… may be there is a answer for this.

I think I have been heritance of my grandma genes, she was that kind of person who love her family so much. No matter what cost her, she will try to make her family well. She was a tough, strong and committed lady. I think I have that beside the “lady” part of it. I remembered every time when I at home – Penang, my cousin likes to sit around me and listening to my old time stories. I will tell them like what grandpa did, the old time story. Well, is not bring story because it is a true story. I told them how grandma used to treat us, taking care of us… litter things like accompany her for morning jogging to wet market shopping. I think not just they like to listen, but I like to tell them the story… mainly because I would like to made them know that life is tough, if grandma could make that far… so do we.

Yup! Just another 7 sleeps away… I am so looking forward for the day that I am being fetched to airport. I missed home…

49th Week

2004-11-30T15:34:00.000+10:00

Looking at my calendar, gosh, it is week 49, and there just 5 weeks to go. I am so excited about this holiday, mainly because I am going back for holiday.

Christmas

My family don’t celebrate Christmas, because there are not Christian and they are not ang mo. So, Christmas was not a big deal for us, but I am excited because every year, we celebrate Family Day on Christmas. Family Day in my family, is a big thing, probably I would say bigger then we celebrate Chinese new year. Family Day became so important to us ever since my Grandma passed away, last May 04. She was the one who started this event. I remember my cousin who is the chairman for Family Day 2004 told me that, everyone (my family members) were looking forward to this event. All my relative, whoever are currently overseas already arranged themselves for this holiday. So, without doubts, I am excited and looking forward to meet them again.

Medical Checkout

Talking about PR application, today was my final medical checkout. It was the early appointment, just couple of people at the waiting room when Daniel and I arrived. After registered ourselves, Daniel was first in the queue. After I was tested on my urine and eye, I was called into the doctor’s room.

Surprisingly the doctor was from Penang (my hometown), he was born there and now he is working in HSA. Well, he is ang mo by the way. So, it really shocked me. Anyway, I was sitting on the bed awaiting for checkout, doctor said that my blood pressure is too high. He make jokes that I was too busy with work, because my phone rang before I enter to his room. He was saying that I should get away sometime, so that I can relax. Anyway, he told that he will get another blood pressure measurement later if I could just relax and rest myself on that bed. Ha! It was cool on that bed, the a/c was blowing on me and I was actually only with my undies. My mind telling myself “relax, relax… you don’t want to have a high blood pressure, aren’t you?” Finally, I passed the medical checkout.

This was incredible experience because I just know that if we under pressure, our blood pressure will just shoot up like no body business. I am taking the doctor advice, he left the bed during the checkout and pinch my fat said, “ you should thinking about losing these…” I really felt guilty about it. So, from today, I will TRYING to do exercise…

God is here

2004-11-26T09:57:00.000+10:00

Most of the time, we take something for granted. Just like I take God for granted. There was this saying that we will never need God if we never need something? I dunno how true this statement, but what I can tell you that at this point in time, I really need his intervention very badly.

Yah… my PR application. I have to find a suitable visa to have my PR granted that’s because I am not student anymore. It is hard, but God is here.

There are 2 response that I can react when I received some bad news. First, to be really mad, crazy and curse whoever or whatever they are who stuff up the situation, or second, be claim and just pray and let God handle the rest, slowly there will be many other opportunities comes to doorstep.

Sometime, I behave like first option, but I know deep inside, there will be result. But if I choose the second option, I know I will have good outcome, that’s what faith all about.

Never underestimate the unseen God, yup, I am asking you trust someone that is unseen, and know that He is God. Because there are many out there who can testified that this unseen God is not just invisible, but He do great things.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, soul and mind.

November, the season of life

2004-11-08T13:13:00.000+10:00

Its already November, I have been working for about 2 years now. I am excited because I know that I have experience in working and if I leave now and looking for new job, I know my waiting period will not be that long. But will I leave my current job?

I learn so much, but I got paid so litter. Am I asking for too much? Hmm… I think that will leave you to judge.

This month will be the month that I will going to slowly going through my PR application. I am upset about the wrong information that gave my Immigration officer. I have been wasting almost 2 years to wait for these day to apply. Apparently the immigration officer said that there are no such rule that I have to wait for unless 2 years for my PR application under Business Sponsorship…. Well, that when the power of forgiveness come along….

This time… I really need miracle for the application because I no longer trust any migration agency, I heard no good comment from my friends who go through migration agent and make no recommendation.

Yup! Business with many year-end accounts now, but at the same time, the spirit of Christmas season is getting stronger. Ha! When talk about Christmas, partly excited about holiday and gift… but also the season of forgiveness and celebration.

God bless me as I go through this season of life… -alvin

Emotional Blockage

2004-10-25T14:39:00.000+10:00

Do you know how you feel when the day comes that whatever you do is just not right. The ?not right? here that I am talking about is not something wrong? but may be just emotional blockage. Yah? I use emotional blockage because no matter what I do today, just not satisfy enough.

I finished all my SEP account already, usually took me at least end of the following month to finish. I should feel satisfy because I know for another 5 days, I will have nothing much to do, but instead of feeling relax and not stress, I felt? I felt? I dunno?! Really? well, as I said early, don?t know what wrong.

Anyway, so I decided to continue my business proposal which at least there are 2 most influential person are waiting to read, but my brain just doesn?t work, can?t thinking of words and phrases to describe.

May be just the weather (nothing to blame), may be just the air-condition wasn?t cold enough, or may be I am just moody?!

Think back, for the past 3 days, I can?t really sleep well, tossing and turning. Still remember that on Sunday, I actually wake 3 hours before my set alarm time. I don?t know what wrong with me. Sitting on couch, had my toasted bread for breakfast and fresh juice and thinking what I have been really thinking.

I don?t know my future going to be like. Yup! There are business proposal coming up, there things like ministry that line up, there are dreams, vision and goals try to achieve, but somehow I still have doubt whether I am staying in Australia for long. I don?t know whether this is the season of change, or may be I was affected by other factors that force me to make include in conclusion? I don?t know.

Next month will be 2 years since I started working at my current job. It wasn?t pay that well, but I am still surviving. If looking for big saving, big houses? I can?t stay long in this current job, I think I have to move on. But if I move on? first, I have to get my residency status fix. And that going to be pain in the ass. It involve so many documents and times just to get my status done.

But at the same time, deep inside my heart, I am still thinking of choosing to be ?home? (Australia) or home in Malaysia. God lead me?

Exam Period

2004-10-20T11:06:00.000+10:00

Exam period is just around the corner. Not that I am going to take exam, or I could just don’t care, but I can’t. See, the point is almost of my friends are University student and this is the period of time when felt most “left out” because everyone is doing what they do – studying and revision, except me.

Well, this time, I got an very interest ideal of doing something else while these friends of mine fighting their final battle of the year – watch video.

I think this is a very good ideal, I know it is selfish method of anti-social activity. Watching video the most anti social activity, interact less but got the maximum entertainment for ourselves. Most of all, when I put my 100% focus on the movie, I will never even know who actually there watching together with me. So, I would say it is the most ultimate selfish activity that you can do together with your mate with I say “let hang out together”. Well, of course not everything is bad, have you heard this statement before, this is a friend pick a card and send to his best friend, in the card it said this – I enjoy most of the time even when you saying nothing at all. Lots of people think that it is sweet, well, I think it is sweet too. Don’t you think it apply to this “watching video” session?

Anyway, yes, I prepare myself for this period of time when everyone study and I am going to watch lots and lots of video. The Chinese movie series, many kung-fu movie acted my Jacky Chan and many actors of my favourites shows.

What to do? Self entertaining will be the best at this time… don’t you think so? Even the working friends of mine keep complaining that too busy for friends… I think I just have to get few bags of popcorn and soft drink later tonight for 4 hours session of movie. Hai….!

Connecting to Nature

2004-10-05T10:53:00.000+10:00

I was so busy and caught up with busy city life. Once in a while I like to run away from city life and connect to the nature. This is how I refresh myself sometime. Life is tough, not that neither you or me don’t know, but why some people are so happy and why some are not? Well, although we may not have same life experience, but at least one thing I do know, we have our own problem and business in our life. So, from my opinion, some people are happy because they enjoying life, rather than complaining and nagging about life. When we caught up with stress, it is good to find sometime just to connect with nature, just you… and the tree… and the water, cool breeze from the mountain and fresh air.

Last Saturday, I went to my favourite run-away place, Springbrook. It is my top five place that I would like to visit when I am stress.
1. Room – Sleep
2. kitchen – cook and keeping eating
3. living room – watching DVD or just on couch and do nothing
4. car – nice music
5. Springbrook – connect to nature

Since I am back now, I am ready to take the world.

Embraced myself to the nature just like our Creator embraced us when we needed. When I was there, just the tree and the cool breeze, just like His arm and slowly embraced me and the hauling winds, like telling me, “let it go, because I am here for you…”

Indeed, God is good!

2004-09-27T10:44:00.000+10:00

Friday was the day that I have been waiting for. Slightly after work (3pm) I was rushing home, I have 4pm rehearsal. Yup, was packing all my props that needed then I still have another 30min to kill for 4pm. So, I decided to take a nap. Indeed, it was so refreshing after just 15min of rest.

Hou Yi and Chang Er got married

When I reach Abel Smith, everyone was busy with their own thing. From setting up the production equipment, to decoration and as we actor… try to concentre our skit while everyone else laughing at us of our silliness.

In the beginning I was just a bit concern about how I am going to react if the skit wasn’t good, I am not good enough to carry out the character. Well, yes, I have experience in acting, but somehow during the rehearsal, it just doesn’t good enough. I was quite disappointed…

Just right before the all show started, I already at the backstage, getting myself ready. I am just as nervous as usually. Ha! It doesn’t really look from outside, but inside was like the volcano pumping out the lave…

Ohh no… the music started, that was just the sign of counting down my queue to appear on stage. While the dancers were dancing, I was just prayer at back stage… “God, I am just a vessel, use me and help to carry the message. I dunno how, but I know you are my God.”

Hou Yi became Emperor

As I prayed, I just left peace… and all the sudden before I knew it, I was actually enjoying myself at backstage, peeping through the curtain on what really going on at the front stage. Yah… it was so funny, were laughing till my head off.

When the drama starting, I was just concern about the queue and how the music and lighting really go well… while acting at the front stage before I knew it… the light was on and the music already playing in the background. Ha… just in a second, I was actually came to the last screen.

Hou Yi shot down 9 suns

I just dunno how much I thanking God how His grace and wisdom. I know I am doing well. The very first person who congratulate me, but I know deep inside it wasn’t just me… but the One who has been watching me and helping me. He is the One who should give praise to.

Acting Experience

2004-09-21T10:40:00.000+10:00

Another few days to go for before my acting performance. Yah… I dunno what on earth I am doing such thing. What I know is do Laurer favour because she was begging me to act on this Hou Yi character for the drama that going to perform on 24th September for the celebrate of Mid Autumn Festival, one of the ancient Chinese celebration that never been missed.

I have been Andrew (my housemate) acted last year, and I guessed it wasn’t that hard because I roughly know the storyline. Of course include all those sweet word that they have been trying to pursue me to act, so I got my myself now in a big “acting” challenge.

Yah, challenge. It is challenge, there were many reason that I had mentioned before, but the ultimate reason is challenge myself to do something which I not comfortable with. If you know me well, act just wasn’t my “in-thing”. By accept this challenge was a hard thing to do. During the practice, I dunno whether I should treat it seriously or just “play-play” only. But somehow I keep telling myself that the challenge is here and this is how I always treat it… play-play. Of course I am not telling you that this acting will be something serious, but I am putting effort to accomplish my goal.

Most of the time when Laurer teach me some action that I felt not comfortable with, I always scream out in-side me –“God… what am I up to…. What on earth I am doing here, I can’t dance like that… I can’t act so macho, because I am not, and I am not that kind of person….” Well, at the end, I realise that this is what acting about. Is to push myself beyond my comfort zone and act like someone who I am not.

I still have another 3 more days to go before Friday… God help me!

John Tan

2004-09-16T13:51:00.000+10:00

John Tan - leaving to Singapore for 4 months to continue his national service. John is a great man and servant of God. His contribution to XLR8 is uncountable, he willing to serve with his talent in visual arts. You should look at his visual art work in XLR8 Emerge Conference.

Although it just 4 months, but I am going to miss him much.

Yesterday, we had dinner together with other bunch of guys. It is a guys night out I guess. We had lots of laugh and of course food as well. We went to “all-you-can-eat” Thai food near at Indooroopilly train station. The food serve was very slow, but we just enjoy each other company.

John is my IT Engineer in my house, well… he is the one who we always called to ask for help if there is anything wrong with our computer, or our wireless network connection. He not just fixing computer, but he also has big heart in friendship.

I remember beginning of last year, we join Fitness First together. Yah… the common goal for the year both of us had is to keep fit. So, we encourage each other every morning met at gym 6am. When I think back, I don’t know how on earth I wake up so early to exercise.
Hmm… just really wish that he will still stick with his plan, to come back to Brisbane next year Feb

"Hit the golf ball... "

2004-09-10T13:16:00.000+10:00

Wake up quite early yesterday, 15 min before my alarm rang. Had a nice breakfast before head off to work. Wasn’t a productive day yesterday. Partly because nothing to do and may be I am just slack.

Went to shopping complex during my lunch break. Got 1.5 kg of lean beef for dinner tonight. Yup, invited Norman for dinner.

Went to golf, apparently none of the usual people were there, only me and Joyce, but we have Daniel and Wei Xin joined us yesterday. It was a good night out. We share a laugh. My golf practices wasn’t that good, I think I injured my waist. Hai… there are many to practise just to get a proper swing and couple of good hit to satisfied me. Well… practise more, since I have most of the clubs and drive in my car now (was kept in Aaron’s all the time)

Thai Beef Green Curry, steam fish with ginger and tomatoes and stir fry spinach with garlic for dinner. Norman was so appreciated that he keep saying thank you. I know he really appreciate from bottom of his heart. He is a good… so bless him is another appreciation of my of our friendship.

A day off...

2004-09-07T11:57:00.000+10:00

…when I found that I am not feeling to good to work yesterday. Started with headache then slow felt that my whole head so heavy. I know I have a big head, but not as heavy as I thought… so, took a day off and rest at home.

Lots of people think that when someone take a day off, mean the person should rest at home. Now, what really means REST at home? Is that mean you sleep all day? Watch dvd? …

Well, my definition of day off is rest at home, not going out. I could be sleeping, watching dvd, or just do my own thing. Yes, I am sick, not resting doesn’t not define sleeping. So, people tend to misunderstood that I should be sleeping rather then watching dvd, when I am sick.

Today…
… I am at work now. Getting better but still need rest. I don’t know whether I have been working too hard, or slept too much…???

Sunset - the renewal of strength

2004-09-01T23:07:00.000+10:00

Gosh, this is the retype of my blog. I lost the blog when I was trying to paste picture. Anyway...

I just admire this picture, took it when I was having my break with Aaron at Mebourne. This photo taken at Philip Island. Its just showing me how beutiful the sunset it is.

Life is like that, every problem has the end, but it just the matter of when it going to happen. Although we may not know when is going to happen, at least we know that God is at our side; where our strength came from. Just like Sun, it set today, but will be refresh new morning tomorrow.

Fireworks, awesome...

2004-08-28T22:31:00.000+10:00

Yesterday, after xlr8, i head to Aaron's. Well, we planned to watch video - Bourne Identity, but most of the store ran out of stock, but April managed to get one (VHS) next door to her house. Then, today follow with newly release - The Bourne Supermacy.

We reached at South Bank cinema, 12:30pm for 12:45pm movie. The movie was so good. I will spare the details.

Then we have about 3 hours to kill before the firework begin. The park was full of people, 500,00 people estimated at the end of the day. hhmm... almost became tuna sandwich. Had seafood roll and an ice-cream for lunch. The rest of them had Kebab, I dunno why Ben like kebab so much.

Finally... ahh... after such a long wait. The show has began, it begin with Jet fly in the speed of 700km/hr, 200 feets above the river level. yah... it was so loud, and it this how the show started.

The firework last for almost 30min, accompany with music. man! It just speechless because it was so spectacular. I love it.

We were at the standing ramp of one of the dockside at south bank. We had just a nice view across the river. The firework just everywhere, from the river surface, bridge to the top of the building. yah... 5 tonne of firework had used on that night.

Spirit of Courage

2004-08-25T10:49:00.000+10:00

Wake up very tired today. Hardly awake when I eat my breakfast. Usually I spent about 10min to prepare my breakfast, but so tired that I just take about 2 min to prepare. Yum… 2 cold ham and honey sandwiches, and a glass of milk. Sitting in front of TV watching Sunrise.

Just so admire our Australian Team women beach volleyballers Natalie Cook and Nicole Sanderson who finished in fourth, lost to American Holly McPeak and Elaine Youngs in the bronze medal play off.

It was such an effort for Natalie Cook to continue to play when she has her underarm injured, and managed to get through the set. I could tell that American team actually target the weak to win the game. She was heavily in pain, but I could tell that something just more than pain to get her continue the game.

Natalie had been aiming for her third consecutive Olympic Games beach volleyball medal after winning gold in 2000 and bronze in 1996.

Olympic is like the journey of life. Every competition is about fighting the battle of life which we face everyday. We may win some time, but we may be the loser some time. But through Natalie, no matter how we so broken hearted or restless but there must be something that keep us going for life.

She may not win the medal, but at least she tried to finish the game. Finish the game is her goal I guessed. She had every single pain and emotion every time she hits the ball. I guessed the spirit of sportsmanship determine her goal to finish her game.

Well, I think purpose of life determine the effort to keep going every time we fall. Fighting the battle could be restless, but it is just part of life. Giving up should be totally out of question.

Cookies, yumm....

2004-08-24T10:55:00.000+10:00

Yesterday was a good day just to rest. Yup! I had headache since Sunday night, then continue to Monday… I took a day off from work and just rest. I didn’t do much at home, just slept until 3pm. Yah… it was a good long sleep. I felt better after all.

About 4pm, I ran to Toowong Village for get some photo printed, that was for some art work that I am doing now. The quality wasn’t that impressive. I like black and white photos, but those photos that printed from digital camera wasn’t that great. Have you seen the real black and white photo from original film? Yup! I like that kind but no matter how, the digital photos can’t produce that quality. So disappointing…

Went to for grocery shopping with Daniel, we had a good laugh. We were waiting for that $3 chicken. Do you know what I mean… those roasted chicken reduce to sale from $8 to just $3, after certain hour. Usually the sale is on 15min before closing, but yesterday was bad… We finish our grocery15min before closing, and we can’t check out at the cashier because we want that chicken. So, we decided to wait for a while… Daniel kept walking up and down at that hot bar… gosh...! finally, it was reduce to sale $3 sharp at 9pm. Goodness me….

Gwen gave us chocolate cookies recipe 2 weeks ago, only yesterday after dinner, we have chance to try it. It was a big mass in the beginning, but the result was impressive. Hhmm… you should try it.

Yumm….

My Sis Graduation

2004-08-19T12:29:00.000+10:00

today (well it is tomorrow for me, because she is at Hawaii) will be my sister's big day. Is her graduation for her Master degree. I am so excited for her and I am so glad that she make it through for her study.

She always has been smarter then I am. Well, I am not jealous or anything... but I am just so glad for her achivement. I actually planned to visit her just for her graduation. My mum and dad can't attend because 20 Aug 2004 will be my 100th days of my grandma passed away. I visit her because my job not allow to.

I just feeling bad for not being there for her celebration. I know nothing else better then to have family celebrate with her especailly on this special day. So, to compensate my absence, I ordered a flower and some other pretty stuff for her. Well, it really cost me some fair bit of money... but I will do anything just to make her feel that I am celebrating with her.

I really hope that she will forgive us for our absence and with these flower and gift could compensate our absence. Wish her all the best for her future and may God be with her always.

I love you mai... cheer!

Something that I learn from SHREK

2004-08-16T18:12:00.000+10:00

Is Monday, yup… I still remember that what I suppose to do today but I didn’t. That’s because I have assignment to hand but I decided to drop the subject which I have mentioned before. Anyway, I am kind of free up my burden. I don’t know whether I did right, but what I felt that I really free from burden. I actually had more rest on weekend, and I have more time to think of my ministry which really drive me crazy. Finally, on Saturday, I just decided to drop the subject which I really can’t cope anymore.

I had a strange feeling yesterday after church service. The sermon was so good. Ps Wayne was talking about Shrek… ha! Yup! The Movie… I am just amaze what we can really learn from a movie, especially cartoon which just so rice in value to learn. He was talking about 7 reason why we need friends… hmm… I am not praising myself but some of the value which I already thought before. But there was once which, of course I knew that forgiveness is important… but it hit me so deeply that Friendship is also about forgiveness. After service I suppose to go for dinner with whole bunch of people.

“The whole bible is about forgiveness” – Ps Wayne quoted from someone else when he had his holiday at South Africa.

I begin to relate myself to the whole story of Shrek and the value of friendship. Recently, I am just so frustrate about one of my close friend who I found that he is just beyond my level of frustration that I can handle. Well, I would say that he has slight proud attitude and sometime like to make himself so proud that he “almost” claim all the credit. He is helpful person to other but sometime when come to friends like me who close to him, I think he is self-centred when interact with me. Hm… I should give full detail of him.

But my whole point of telling you this is to paint a picture who Shrek really touch me. I asked myself, am I forgiving person? And if not, Why not? In the bible, David prayed this prayer, “Father in heaven, please forgive me as I forgive other”. “As” means happen together, so, I should forgive other and at the same time, God will forgive me.

I think I have too much of thinking about this friendship issue, well it is important and without friend, I will be dead in loneliness. Forgiveness please an important role in everyone’s life. It either you take it seriously or you just ignore and pretend there are no such thing called forgiveness. If we have forgiveness, naturally we will have friends because we are loving person.

Anyway, I decided to change my mind dinner with bunch of people, but to have dinner with my close friend who I have been hurt without his knowledge. I took a big breath, suck my tummy in and walk in to his house which I used to hang out day and night. I begin to interact and trying to accept just the way he is. I really prayed that God will heal our relationship, and let me out from the layer of onion, so that I will not hide behind layered of onion anymore.

Endless Sleepless Night

2004-08-13T14:24:00.000+10:00

Time flies… ooh… sound like everyone like to use these word when they slack of updating the blog. Ohh well… I am, actually. I dunno what I have been doing lately. I know that things has change for the past few month. Partly because the church building, I actually felt that I lost my home.

I have been busy with many stuff lately even since the church caught on fire. We are now at Brisbane Convention and Exhibition Centre, which gave us bigger opportunity to fit more people in it. I would say since the event, our church attendee has grow about 200 more, which statistically growth of 35%. I am glad (in the good way) that the fire happened. You know what I mean… don’t you!

Its because we are now at BCEC at least till end of the year, there are many usually church activity and ministry has changed. We are currently restructure the whole ministry and activities. Well… I am trying to tell you that I am still surviving after all these meeting and that meeting.

The 2nd semester of my bible college commenced last month and since then I have not really sit down and really study yet. I felt so guilty for not being obedience. I don’t how to explain, and I don’t know who to blame. I was so caught with meetings and just thinking about change the structure so that we can be excellent. But instead of excellent, I actually stuffed my friendship, I felt so far away from my close friend (someone who always be with me and encourage me, someone who care my general well being, I missed those…) I have less time for space to breath, accumulating the numbers of sleepless night and now every time I just need 2 minute on bed; I am totally gone to my dream world.

Don’t get me wrong that this is the result of ministry… I am just don’t know how to have my time management, or may be this is just a season of changing.

I am in the middle of stress now… many thing has gone not according to plan. I am disappointed… but I am keep pressing on.

I love my church and I love my friends, they are my soul and spirit, where I find joy and happiness that nothing else could replace.

Just came from resort weekend… and there was a session held in panel style. I still remember there was a question that I really wanted to ask, but because lack of time, I wasn’t given a chance. Anyway, may be I should just share here and who knows that you may answer this question.

“I would like to know how we (as working adult work in circular world and not minister) could take time off from ministry and work and at the same time not lost the passion. Remember that we serve actively at ministry during our free time and every time we have break… always time to catch up our sleep. What is your advice to someone like this, to do or what to do during break, so that when we come out from break, we are fresh and ready to do more work…?”

I leave that for you…

God is Awesome

2004-04-02T13:38:00.000+10:00

We know our God is an awesome God. I have to tell you the truth that God has been really faithful in my life. Since I was save, I never turn back again even though there are many comments around. It is not just about cool to be Christian (althogh it is...) but something inside us that only God can fill us.

As you know, I am accountant and as well as servicing in church. I have time for bible college study as well. Yup! I enrolled myself to bible college last February. It is a shocking, but I guess it is a calling from God. I remember for the last 3 months before February, I told Aaron that I want to study and get higher certificate. From CA, CPA, to Master of Accounting... I search them all and I thinking no way I will do that... part because I am not "study" kind of person. If I did, I know I will really stress out myself to get high mark. Than, bible college come through my mind. As you can see, it was the last resource that I ever look through.

Yah... the last resource. and until today, i still can't believe that I enrolled in Bible College. Online study actaully gave lots of flexiblility but need lots of discipline. On the 1 March, me and Aaron finally hand in our name and straight deducted $700 from my credit card... yah it that expensive.

I really Trust in God for what He called me to do. I really pray that I will not stress from this study because I love the subject, it was not suppose to stress to things that you like to do...

After couple of weeks... now, I already hand in one assignment and another coming up soon in three weeks, I can tell you the different studying in bible college and studying in university.

First of all, you have to understand that I not even like accounts (although I am accountant now, I still don't like it and I know who I was with me to carry these through when I was at University). Study in bible college is so different, first you study something that you like which is bible, 2nd - bible college is not testing your knownledge about bible, but to gain knowledge. This is what a lot of people confuse included me. I alway thought that I need high understanding of bible knownledge in order to go bible college, but it was wrong... wrong and wrong. If you have high understand of bible, so why should I go for bible college again? that why bible college are for us to studt the word of God.

The word of God... yup... there are so many thing to learn. It is not studying about history, but to learn what God promises as we are the decendant of Adam and Eve.

Accelerate @ SIN and KUL

2004-01-21T15:19:00.000+10:00

Accelerate Singapore and Kuala Lumpur 2004

Singapore
Its has been a great trip. 3 weeks of holiday. Remember the first day when I arrived at Penang, I already started counting down the day left for holiday. It is because I want to appreciate my holiday and enjoy myself to the max.

The very first thing when I touch down at Penang, I always went for food first. Yup! Dim sum, yum… Then straight home. My family celebrating the annual family Day at my home, so I felt so welcome when I reach home because everyone was there. Yaahh… I was too tired, so after lunch, I went straight to my bed.

I spend most of my first 7 days with family. No friends around and just purely family gathering. Went to weekend house for the whole weekend. It was great just be home.

Then the real thing start when I departing to Singapore on 3 Jan, Saturday night. The moment when I past custom, I knew straight that the fire and excitement begin to build up. Norman picked me up at Singapore, then went to Billy’s. I felt so sorry for Norman coz in the begin I planned to stay with Norman, but just thinking giving more space to Murry and Daniel since they staying with Norman too.

Get to know the Pastors and administrator at Emmanuel AOG. It was great to shock too when I met them. What I can see from them is just rules. Rules and more rules, when ever I saw them from far… what I can think of is No eating, No drinking and No…. this and No… that… and No… No… No… yah… that is how the whole conference went with all this rules.

Slowly the team build up when everyone arrived on Monday. We had many briefing and meeting. Many preparation and decision was made right at the point this is because we have no solid background of planning for a conference especially overseas church. I would say with God’s grace and glory, we won’t be able to make it happen.

Although there are many misunderstanding and situation happened unexpectedly, we still grow as team especially this committee who had put so much effort in it just to make this conference happen. From my point of view as Supervisor, this conference had really somehow change our perspective of interacting with people. Sometime we have to stand firm on our decision, and also sometime we got to be flexible. E.g. without rules, we may turn the sanctuary up side down, and be flexible so that people has more freedom to things , slowly you can see people begin to take lead for their department.

Beside these spiritual side, there are many incident that happened, and I felt totally embarrassed about it. e,g, I fall and landed nicely when I was at Suntec Food Court, because the floor is wet. Doing push up and running like mad people at Suntec when we playing Amazing race (because the pit stop is running away from us, what the!) I would say that the whole Singapore trip is really great and I really enjoy myself. From my perspective, we have time for shopping and as well as preparing the conference.

Kuala Lumpur
Took bus (first class bus with stewardess serving meal) to KL. Check in to Vistana Hotel at Jalan Ipoh. Shared room with Jeff. I thought that I going to have lots of complaining from Jeff because I snore, but guess what… he came and ask me… Did I snore! Well… this mean he not even know when I snore. Praise God!

KL look new to me… monorail, light rail link and etc. Its look so well develop now. Once thing that I learn from KL is that I will never drive to city if I could just catch a train because is so convenience and keep away from frustration. Travel by car is easy at KL, but it is not when you travel with group of people. It so hard to keep up especially when too late to realise that we had make a wrong turn.

CLC, City Harvest KL and bangsar gospel centre has agree to host us for 2005 Accelerate Conference. I am excited seeing the Young Adult ministry begin to grow. I would say that this ministry is new and has been well develop to many church. It is a exciting year because I slowly see the movement of this ministry.

I would take about 6 months of slow planning, starting from June, the committee for 2005 accelerate will be form and this time, we will try to get the publicity out as early as October. If you want to help… let me know.

Christmas

2003-12-09T15:42:00.000+10:00

Christmas
Christmas just around the corner. Yup! It’s always a happy time when we have Christmas, the carols, the trees, gifts, smiley faces…etc. This year, I think Christmas will be something that I not usually do. I am not doing shopping, no giving gifts, no carols… well, not that I am in the depression or something…

I have been caught up with organising the conference which going to be held at Singapore, Emmanuel Church. With all these pack schedule, I really have no time to do shopping and even going for carols. I really missed that.

I am really excited about the conference, as we planned, God always come along with us because everything just gone smoothes. I meant everything is not prefect, at least we are prepared for the worst.

2 more weeks, spending Christmas in Australia is not that bad. I agree we have no white snow, in fact Christmas is the hottest day in Summer at Australia, 35 – 40 degree. But all these are the external factor. We spend time with friends, get some aussie friend BBQ at their deck, swim in the pool, cricket, with sun protection cream, fishing hat (big enough to cover the whole head under the sun). This is what I call fun. Then you have cool dessert, fruits, ice-cream…

Australia has his way of spending Christmas under the hot sun, Christmas not necessary need white snow. What we need, is bunch of friend who Love God, Love Life and Love People.

2003-11-19T13:42:00.000+10:00

Big Business
2 more days for before my sharing for offering during young adult ministry meeting at church. I haven’t got anything in my mind yet but this morning… God always speak in His special way… even when you do your business.

Everyone knows how God speaks. I mean of course God has his own way speak to us but again no doubt that He speak to us when we do our business. I have friends that do their quite time when they do business. From their opinion, when their do business, its most private and quite time for the whole day. Its always an activity that you kick start for the day too. It a personal time that you have it for yourself, because this is personal time, that’s why they choose to spend time with God.

Another theory which is not relevant with quite time at all, but whole to share. This friend of mine totally disagree of having things like book or magazine to read when you do business. This is because she believe that there are germs. Therefore, if she known that you read bible when you do your business, she will not go near to your bible… How true is this theory?

As for me… I am just pray and sing praise when I do my business. As conclusion, it doesn’t matter where you are and what you doing… there are ways to spend time with God, it just depend whether you choose to do it, or not.

2003-10-31T13:26:00.000+10:00

Friday
Friday finally here. All the hard work will be finishing soon. Festival of Colour just tomorrow, my dance already nearly done by tonight. The decoration used to be a big headache for me, but now it already settle, everything is just went well. Thank God for that.

I have a back pain these few weeks... I dunno what should I do now. I think will be ask my landlord to provide me a new bed, coz my current bed is so springgy.... you know what I mean. Then my office chair... haaa..... another problem... I can sit staright as the back support actually to far back... that will be topic to discuss with my director soon.

Storm is on the way, yup! It too hot now and is everyone's wish to have heavy rain at this period. Bush fire slowly howling from far and already few house burnt down this week. Pray that God will protect the people.

2003-10-29T12:09:00.000+10:00

Festival of Colours
1 Nov just this Saturday. Me and Melissa has been trying to thinking of something special or the decoration in the church. Yah, we want something different as always do! Past 2 weeks, we have been thinking of how the opening ceremony will be like. We want something that is so spectacular. We want something that it will leave a deep impact to outsider that we are not that kind of boring group of people.

Yah! Flying cloth. As some of them knows what is that. We want the deco only visible during the open ceremony. Both of us have been thinking deep of how it works that the mechanism behind this theory. Belief me or not that this involve of calculation, gravity theory, draft drawing...

Finally on Monday afternoon, when I have my lunch at work. I have this ideal of how the cloth being hidden and visible during the opening ceremony.

Yesterday, I have chance to experiment my ideal, and guess what! Its works... Ha! Ha! Ha! Although my head is bigger then usual, finally it's speak itself. God won't give me something without His purpose... Ha! Ha! Ha!

2003-10-28T10:30:00.000+10:00

Monday
Is Monday always the lazier day of the week? I felt weak?

Partly because I have back pain, I don't know why but from my guessing, it would be the chair that I sat at my office. I don't think it has a good support on my back and because of that, it created such pain and so uncomfortable. I should request a new chair for me. I don't mind to have small chair, as long as it support my back, I would be happy.

First, I visited bank and can't believe that the queue were so long until outside of the bank. Then... post office as well, total time spent = 1 hour for banking and at post office. What a day?

7pm at home, already finish cooking and ready for dancing practice. We had a great time and also finally we have all moves. Unfortunately, I have to do something that I never do in my life... is mime out the song and act the moves of the movie Grease. Oohh dear... I need some groovy moves and .... AM I LOOK LIKE A GROOVY PERSON?
Yah... hope that I have sometime to work out the moves before Wednesday...

2003-10-27T10:31:00.000+10:00

Convertible
I had the best weekend yesterday. It all began with 2 weeks ago. One of my friend was seeking my advise, what can she do something that never did before for a weekend. Something that you can totally forgotten about your normal life. Basically just get away from our daily busy life. Well, I have been thinking…

Yup! Last Saturday, 9am, I picked up my one day owed Holden Astra convertible, 4 seater. Came back and quickly we made sandwiches for lunch later at the trip. 2 of my housemate and one of my dear friend, we headed to coast with our convertible. It is just such a different feeling driving that car. Have you ever drive car without roof on? It just like dream came through.

We learn so much on that trip… we now understand with those 60’s, the ladies have to put on scarf when they drove on their car (most of the car were convertible type at that time), so that their hair won’t be mess up y the wind that blow in all direction. One thing that “must wear” item is sunglasses. I can’t drive without sunglasses because the sun just shine directly on you and I don’t feel comfortable anyway.

We were excited just the way how the roof being folded and kept nicely in the compartment. We were fascinated with the car structure, the leather seats, the computerise system in the car…

We spent about 2 hours at Byron bay, then another hour and a half at beach. When we ready heading off to Gold Coast for dinner… the sun already setting and it just a prefect time to drive out newly toy. Cold breeze and just unbelievable.

The worse thing that happen… it rained on and off through out the night. So can you imagine that we put on and off the roof? Ha! That the way man! Then at my favourite restaurant at Gold Coast – BoonChu Thai food, we had our tomyum, ahhh!!! Even now, I still can taste the delicious hot spicy sour soup. Yumm…!

When we on our way home, we had very interesting conversation with Andrew. Hmm… want to know what is that? Ask him!

2003-10-22T16:33:00.000+10:00

Its Wednesday
Wednesday always good. I like Wednesday, partly because I am paying myself for my salary, but also half way to weekend. Wednesday always went so fast because whole day I will just busy do all the payment documents. I love Wednesday!

You ever keep thinking something until even dream also dreaming about what you think? Well, it sound really deep huh! Let me explain! Me and my friend were just trying out the decoration for the festival of colour. Yah! Until today, none of our theory and mechanism that work well according to plan that had made early. Yup! I want a grand open ceremony! I want these cloth will only drop down from ceiling during the opening. Me and my friend already squeeze dryly our brain but still just can’t work “smoothly”. We still have the last options and I really hope that this coming experiment on Sunday will be good.

2003-10-21T16:48:00.000+10:00

Dance all night
1 Nov 2003 was the day that my church has plan for out reach to international community. Yup! It's a day where you can find lots of foods, dances, drama and costume. It is a day which you can meet lots of people from every nation.

I wasn't really involve in this Festival of Colour thing. But somehow....

Its starts here... our dance co-ordinator, Serene, she was struggle finding her dancers. Everyone who was in her list eventually drop off. I dunno whether it the dance that too hard until drop off or just study. Anyway, she lend my house for practice yesterday. Just 4 girls and 1 guys. I was cooking my dinner and also partly giving them ideal and suggestion. Not that I know a lot, but just brainstorming what we can do on the dance. It just un-even number of dancers...

I know I have nothing to do on that day. I know that I shouldn't be involve myself too much, but... somehow I just agree that I will help them to even up the number of dancers. Yah... now we have 2 guys and 4 girls.

The step is easy, but it's not nice if don't shake as much as required. I don't dance as frequent as they do, of course I always miss the steps. But the really sad thing happen...!!! I have comment from people who spectator said that "You dance like a girl!" that really hurt.

I found it really discouraging me. I could just drop off like others, but I know I doing this for who I serve, but not for he who give comments to discourage me. I needs His strength to do this and wisdom to dance.

Watch out for who I am, brother!

2003-10-20T11:34:00.000+10:00

…
I haven't got any ideal what to name for the title. Yesterday was my team on duty for the Sunday service. Yah, one thing I really like about leading the deacons team for Sunday service is we have opportunity to serve. I always has this impression that when we first step into the church, the usher has this big smile in their face, I can feel that I am welcome. It is hard to have a big smile on face when you are on duty early in the morning. But nothing is impossible!

I remember when I serve as volunteer in Hillsong Conference, average we have good sleep everyday about 4 hours. We wake up 5am and be on site at 7am. Through out the 5 days, we all have our smile on our face every morning. I am surprise that it really work and refreshing the participant every morning. There are many delegate came to us and ask us do we have a good sleep? We do, 4 hour per day plus God grace… that will make a good smile on our face.

That what I really like about serving at frontline for Sunday service. My team is the only team that we have dress code. We have spring wear, all black, summer costume… its always different every month.

Anyway, at the end of the day, what we want is creating an imagine to community that church is not something about religion or the joy in stillness… but the church is a place where we worship God and we celebrate the joy of living.

Brisbane City Church

2003-07-24T14:22:00.000+10:00

Holiday 5 Jul - 12 Jul 2003
Hillsong Conferences
21000 delegate and 2763 volunteer gather at Sydney Superdome. On 5 Jul, I travel on flight with Lawrence and Kenneth. We had great trip to Sydney. After check in at Aaron’s Hotel, slowly the rest of the group members came. But before the come, we have litter time to spend, so we meet up with Josephine, Melissa, Meng Kit and Vania. We went for lunch at Mother Chu, such a disappointment that we got for the service and behavior.

Jennifer then check in at 3:30pm then continue with Michelle travel from New Castle who change her mind to stay with us after many times convincing her. We spend the whole evening at Market City and shop around at Hay Market. We got excited with things that we can’t get in Brisbane like displaying bra for sale at the open market concept.

Lung, John, Julies and Pearl arrived after 12 hours of driving. We then dine in at this restaurant for dinner. Later at night, we decided walk to Start City. The journey walking there is good but we lost our way on the way home. Thank God that we keep walking and some how we back to hotel.

On the next day, we went to The Rock, there they have coffee festival. We were squeezing through those people who endure themselves with high caffeine. Ha! That was the day when I found that you could only travel with someone who you not just click with, but also easygoing person.

7 Jul was the day that we are waiting for, we found the way to the place where we going to work hard for the next 5 days. We went for briefing after we had our name register. I was in Michael’s team at Main Arena. I don’t know whether I was so being trust or what… I was always on Gate 13, which is almost behind stage and seldom people want to sit there.

But anyway, the next few days were good. I learn so much about attitude. I can be a person of encourager and also people of discourage. Even though I have 4 hours sleep every night, but put a big smile on our face is far more important feeling tired every morning when we start our duty.

They are so many good speakers around and I hardly sit in for the sermon, mainly because I was physically tired and usually I will just fall asleep at far corner of the arena. When the sermon finish, we all will awake again… and start the brand new section again.

My team has fewer of them end up didn’t turn up. Thank God that I have the rest of my friend who also in volunteer willing to help. They suppose to sit in for the service, but they choose to serve and this really make the whole team more effective in controlling the crowd. I really thank God for the group of friend that I have.

2003-07-02T13:47:00.000+10:00

2 more days to go
Yup! 2 more days to go for my trip to Sydney and also back to Malaysia. This trip can be either blessing or suffering trip. This is my story.

A month ago, I have planned these trip, which is 5 Jul to 12 Jul-Sydney then 13 Jul to 27 Jul to Malaysia. I only tell my boss 2 weeks before last week. He not happy for me as I leaving to this trip. As my guessing, there are various reasons and as I remembered, that day wasn’t a good to discuss this matter with him. This is because on 10 Jul we have visitation from tax officer and he wants me to get ready for all these preparation also 30 June is Financial year end. Anyway, I have decided to go and sending him letter telling him upon the trip to go home back to Malaysia.

I think this trip is important, I can have all the jobs but I can’t have another grandma. My grandma is very dear to me, she has the courage to live as long as now even though she has been suffer so much since 13 years ago. Now, she is old, and this trip may be a last trip for me see her, and I dunno to waste my time at work when during the middle of month nothing much to do beside design and reconstructing account layout.

I hope this will be a blessing trip for me… and pray that I can deal with this issue with wisdom and mutual.

2003-06-25T17:21:00.000+10:00

Tolerance
The worse lesson in life that need to be learn is not about getting degree or PhD, neither strumming your guitar string or hitting the golf ball. I think tolerance. Learn to be tolerate with your mate is important beside all the theory of life. Tolerance is use everywhere and anytime without knowing. You need to be tolerate with you on queue at cashier, standing in the motion bus with those armpit lifted high, even husband with his toilet bowl lid not lifted up.

Past few weeks, I have been again teaching myself about tolerances. I frustrated with things just doesn’t go my way, I burned out from work that my boss has all his last minute work, even isolate myself from others with things that I not agree with. It so hard to discuss because I know, if they (these people) need a litter bit of sensitivity, I think things will went well. But guess what, this is just who they are and I just have to accept it be patient, and be tolerate with him.

I still not get over it yet, but I think without this lesson, I won’t be “grow up” and in future, I will still face the same problem again and again. I always believe that God is like our teacher (or whoever teaching you), He will continue create “ hard question (that we never know how to do)” until the day that He agree pass us with flying colour.

2003-06-24T13:25:00.000+10:00

Cool Morning
Wake up this morning were so cold. After say my prayer, I felt so refreshing and knowing that God and my strength and my song. I will sing praise as long as I live. Hopping along the corridor (because is cold what..!!!). I know deep inside my heart, that today is gonna be a good day, no matter what challenge that i face today, I will be seed for tomorrow, slowly I will conquer it.

My boss called me in to his office, first thing I know that something went wrong if not, he won't called me with his surprise voice. I sat down and he quietly and eyeing the paper on his hand and said, “Alvin, ATO is coming over 10 Jul and this is what you gonna prepare prior to that date.”

Ohh my gosh…… when I look at the paper I was in shocked. 3 officer will be here on that day, and they want thousand of things. I know that it gonna be headache because all this file already in archive and they need ’00, ’01 and ’02 account. I have about 10 days to get these thing done. But will I finish these on time? Because I have this financial year account to be close on 30 June!

I started pulling out all the file and surprisingly that now (1:16pm) I already almost finishing year ’02 account.

I think it is so important that morning prayer be part of life. I would say just like breakfast. I won’t say this example is right because some people has the habit of not taking breakfast, but according to expertise, breakfast is the most important meal for the day.

I do take breakfast everday, my lunch and dinner are small amount and I feel perfectly well. That why I relate this to morning prayer…. It just like engine that need to be warm up before you start to drive every morning then the driving will be more smoother. Morning prayer is like warming up your engine. So that you will have smoother day ahead.

2003-06-23T11:00:00.000+10:00

Busy Weekend, Busy In God's Kingdom
Everyday, I am just waiting for Friday to come. Friday is such a day that I I wanted so so much. I just can't explain why. Is like you know when Friday comes, the next day is Saturday and you have all the time for yourself and do things that you like most. Plus, Friday, I only work half day, I mean just 2 hour knock off early compare to usual day.

Jack and Olivia wedding last Saturday. They are so beutiful and handsome when they dress up. I kind of wondering when is my turn standing there saying vow to my love one. Well, that would be when the day I decided she is the "one". Spent the rest of the day slept on cough trying to reclaim all the sleep that I owe to my dreams.

Sunday is good. Deaconing that day, was busy because water baptism first time at 10am service and at night was the Master Commission Graduation. There are many things to do but yet I enjoy every single moment with friends and church especially those who encourage you and not pushing you down by picking all your mistake.

Was asking God, could I be a litter bit more sensitive. I am sensitive person, and I used to get up set that I am too sensitive. Well, as today, I guess that was the gift. Since it gifted by God, why not ask more so that I can use this and sow back to Kingdom of God. Should I ask myself why I need more sensitive? Well, I guess I need because I am start serve in brand new ministry, that is to be my pastor's public assistant. I think I should be more sensitive towards a man needs, so that when we travel to overseas, he will not burn out, tired and make sure that he is comfortable to all things and also phycsically protect him from the evil spirit especially those time before and after preaching congregation.

2003-06-18T11:57:00.000+10:00

Live Life in Gods Kingdom
How interesting is that when someone can just stir you up again on something that you have interest in before? Well, this is a very good example. Posting my dairy everyday, tell my friends what actually happen in my life, so that they would feel far away from me even though they are thousand miles away from me. But it is also interesting that the purpose of doing this also depanding on who are the one who stir you up. For example again, I may not be bother to post this dairy which I used to, but what if I found my long lost good friend, I may restart using this again.

I am really busy since my last update. Life get busy and busier. I guess working just to get life keep going on and of course the source of income. But what really want is just to be in Kingdom of God, serve Him and just to be with Him. But I really thank God that that wasn't the best way to close with Him. I think He has design the world such a way that you have to learn something if you wanna get close with Him. For example, the only way to get closer with God, is to pray, serve and to dwell in the presence of God. I remembered few weeks ago, I was arguing with my friends that nothing is free on earth. But do you think Salvation is free???

Salvation is not free. Salvation need to pay price, but this price is not the money that I am talking about. This price is the life style that you have. Salvation bring new lifes, therefore your price to pay is to forget about your old life style and start to live like a brand new person because He has cleansed us, once and for all.

Well, back to my topic. If I really want to be in Gods Kingdom, then I should learn what I have now, work on excellency, be the champion because we are the head and not called to be tail. Suffer is just part of living life, if we not suffer, we may as well not live because only heaven lives without suffer.

When I get into life to serve God fulltime, I think I will thank God for all things that He had prepare for me, include to be accountant, socialise with the circular world, and the most tough part is live life according to biblical teaching.

Now, that what I call... Live Life in Gods Kingdom

2003-04-28T13:39:00.000+10:00

It is a very interesting that you got courage of doing something by somebody who consistant doing the same thing as you do. I was really encourage by my friend who really consistantly update his own dairy, but not on blog just in is own computer file. I mean whats the different?

Suppose to wake up for gym this morning, but just can't. May be i am too tired. When come to think about it, I didn't do much during the weekend, I think it just tireness and the weather.

Yesterday was fun, just with housemate and cooking at home and resting. I think I need more of these days to rest. Just being at home

2003-02-12T13:16:00.000+10:00

Back to Life
1, 2, 3, …. 49, 50 and 51, that was the count of days since my last update. Hmm… am I slack or what? I not even can remember what happen to my life… ha! Its hard just to think back what had happen.

12 weeks of working life, I think I have change a lot. My perspective of living, I learned so much, sometime I still can’t believe that I am “adult” now (as we always thought that we are adult when we start working). Everything that we learn at Uni and for the past 2 decades, has eventually come to real now.

Remember when I was young, saving up my own expenses was something hard to do, but now… I have to discipline myself upon things that I wanted to do. Discipline is another issue in my life now, without discipline, I think I would be able to work well and got lots of praises from directors. I am happy how I achieve so far, but I know there so much more to be change become a better person.

There is one thing that I learn so far important to me. I sort of fall in love with someone who I think I know well. But after a while, it seem to be… funny, I treat her life stranger, somebody that hard to communicate with. I actually struggle to work out how much more that I need to change. Relationship is something that I am not good at. If and only if I listen to HIS words, loud and clear… I may not have to have this.

“I think knowing what you cannot do is more important than what you can do” –Lucille Ball

2002-12-23T14:43:00.000+10:00

Merry Christmas and Happy Holiday
Just 2 more days, we are celebrating Jesus’ birthday. Well, I can’t say much about how He has been faith to us. Everyday before I prepare myself ready to go work, I always remind myself that I have to pray while I drive to pick up Rachel. Well, I did. Of course on my to Rachel’s work. But it is different the day I make a prayer before I start my work and the day I totally forgotten about it. How should I know that whether I make a prayer before that? Well, its depend whether at the end of the day, am I stress or not.

God has been so faith, no question. But I have been struggling myself to serve Him more. This is my problem… I felt so useless when I am sitting in my office and doing all those paper works that not really doing His job. I want to serve Him more, I want my life to be utilise by God’s work. Sitting at office, facing all my paper work, beside preparing the import products, chasing debtors and tidy up the account; nothing else that I do.

Year end celebration always came along with revolution. Sitting here, thinking about what God had done in my life for the past 12 months, I am speechless because there are so many. I am so thankful deep inside my heart. There are no words that could be express.

Just hoping that I could do more what I had done this year, so that His name would be famous then last year.

Jesus, I love you.

2002-12-16T16:05:00.000+10:00

Time flies. Its has been long time that I didn’t logon, its just simple because I am so busy. Yup! You may be just wondering that what I am doing. Just need to let you now that I already got job. This is great. I learn lots in this job. Accountant, you probably think that it must be very good pay. But…. It is not. The amount of pay doesn’t really goes with the amount of work load.

I have a really good working environment. There are 6 of directors in this company. Everyone of them are friendly. There all from Fiji, of course sometime I am confuse because they speak Hindu to each other.

I have my own room… its just simple because I am accountant and I need private space to do my work. Own computer and my own internet connection. You probably think that its normal but it is not for me especially I just graduated and first job in my life as permanent staff. Clean table and I am going to put my photo on my table soon, just like those people have their photo of their love one on the table.

Having job and wanted to serve in ministry at the same time is hard. I have to take sometime out to serve and at the same time I have to take sometime out for rest. Be honest, since I start work here, I have not enough sleep. My heart is to serve in ministry and see those people grow in Christ. It is a joy that never could be express, only you did and you feel it. I do think of going full time, but how I am going to support myself. I guess this question was in those people serve fulltime ministry. Step of faith…

At this period of time, every single one of my friend away for holiday. Going home for holiday is the time for spirit to be refresh. I wanted to go home. I miss my home so much especially this year when everyone of my family member came back to Penang for Christmas holiday. Those who has been long time didn’t see and those who I missed, my sister.

I hope that this summer going to be alright as just 7 of us (Rachel, Nelson, Andrew, Melissa, Sureen and Evie) staying for summer. I hope that we encourage each other, we support in physically and spiritually. I hope as well that we work things out when things get harder sometime.

God, please be my side as well as my friends’

2002-11-26T10:32:00.000+10:00

Working Bees
Almost a month now since my last update of my blog. How busy i am!!! When i think back.... for the past of month, i really not doing anything until 2 weeks ago. God has been so greatful that He provided me a job. It is a really miracles. well, when i am free... i will talk you lots. But at this time.... i will be back on screen again.... so that i won't let you down!

End of year.... end of month. man! when these 2 come togather, most of people are busy. Christmas, children, holiday, work, exam finish and packing,....etc. I never knew how a working adult having holiday feel like. well, when this coming holiday, i will tell you then!

anyway, i guess that all from me... for today. catch me soon ok! :-)

2002-10-31T17:36:00.000+10:00

Production
Ha! Nearly a week since my last updated of my blog. Time fly! From tomorrow, we are entering to the second last month of the year. People start to lie back as the Christmas is coming. Students already squeezing their brain juice for the exam. Well, as for me, I am still jobless since last June. No really wants me. How sad!

Helping up in church just another thing to fill my free time. TV production may be just another thing that I can do to fill my extra time, but as for me, I just want to serve as many as I can before I really got myself busy with work.

Its has been busy week for our team. Basically just me and Ryan were the only person who are free, therefore most of the responsibility on us. But I thank God that I had learned lots. Beside that I have opportunity to work as team with David Evans, great person in the kingdom of God. It is not easy to work with these people who are really busy when I am really free. But think of the bright side¡K not just learning of knowledge, but just handling stuff in more professional. I like that.

What a friend that i have
Past few weeks, I have been totally different person when I am in the present of someone. I has been told not to advise him in anyway. I just have to forget about what really friendship means to me. It is just very hard when I am in his present because it is just basically I am not allow to talk. How is that! Should I really be change not to advise people nor advise too much that might be nagging? Or may be I should just be myself? Friendship is really dearest to me¡K how? My friends?

2002-10-24T10:47:00.000+10:00

Leaders
There are always plan and lots of self-study for qualities leader development in circular world. How about we, who are in the kingdom of God, do we really care what and who we are? Leadership is natural or could be grown to be a leader? Personally agree there are leaders who naturally born with leadership, but I believe too that leadership can be grown. 1Tim 3:1 anyone desire of the heart, God will give. Therefore we must desire to have one.

While there are many valuable area of development possible to the aspiring leader, some of those, which dynamically affect them, are:
Reading
Constantly read, history, bibliography, political. Not necessary to be in Christian context, but as long as we never stop learning.
Memory
We can test by memorise verses, names, sermon and etc.
Study
Never stop learning and self-study. Here we are talking about self-development.
Language development
Develop ability to communicate and write because with good communication, we can easily express.
Physical development
Physical health, exercise, sound mind us found in the healthy body.
Social skills
Communication. Association with people name, learn to be listener rather then a talker. Learn to ask question for your own benefit.
Organization
Live in ordinary life. Start from your own private place like bedroom and home. Take these as habit we that we can influences people. Dedicate your private place for God. Believe it or not, tidy bedroom bring healthy environments of living.

2002-10-23T11:31:00.000+10:00

The One
Life is so interesting. Human beside just live what they should do daily, searching for life partner would be most difficult part. God had created us so that we can have 2 ways communication with Him. Therefore searching for life partner is not something as easy we those creatures. We looking to the perspective of another person, we care what he/she think... most of all we looking for the perfect match in heaven. When this happen, all the blessing and wisdom will fall onto you.

3 point (principle, purpose and plan)
Principle. Searching for intersting principle of life from your partner. Is she has the same principle of life as you do. e.g I want 2-3 kids, same as she do? Then you should have a big tick on your journal. Also find out what she wants to do in future, missionary or housewife. Think about what is the different between these too dreams???
Purpose. Checking the purpose of searching life partner ourselve. Of course to keep the decendents flowing.... but the most important is, do we have the same purpose in life. I might have purpose in life is to live fore Christ, serve in church and do God's work. But what if she is just want to be a good housewive???
Plan. Life planing was so important. God guidance will never come if we not start to plan our life. Therefore it is important. If the life planning wasn't as similar as hers. Then you should know the answer.

Its is funny to look at these principle. Its like looking for partner, if matches 3 points, then you go for it!!! its not! We need wisdom to do these, we need the confirmation that what we doing is right. Therefore having somebody for you accountable with is very important.

Her, God and Me
Imgaine these 3 individual. The principle here is to explain how the relationship should goes before looking up these relationship as long lasting relationship. These three individual must be surpervise by the 3 principal. If all three 3 principle are going very well. You can see the relationship would become one as the relationship goes.

2002-10-18T10:50:00.000+10:00

Celebrating Life - Choir
Yup! thats it!!! This is the day that we (all choir) going to do our best. Through out the weeks of practise, today! we all just gonna have fun and Praising God. I am just very curious about dress code, the ladies have their gorgeous outlook, black dress… but guys have to wear black pants and white shirt with black bow ties or tie. I can complain much but this make me look like a waiter. “Waiter, can I have a glass of water please…!”

Singing in the choir not for a first time. Remember two years ago when I started to join choir, which was Queensland 2000, where all of us just have fun in singing. No singing harmony or part that hard to sing. Then the second was the last year Christmas “Christmas in the Park”, we have a fun time together. This wasn’t hard because we have score to read and it is not hard to be a tenor. But when come to this Queensland 2002 and had female as our vocalist trainer. We (guys) felt so stress because she wants us to reach the very high pitch (its is not impossible for us to reach but it is very very high).

Through my music experience, usually female vocalist trainer tend to require tenor to sing very high compare to male vocalist trainer, he wants the ladies sing very high. This is not about bias or centred minded, but it is the nature of the person. The male and female voice range are different, so each of the trainer has different perspective and sometime choose to have opposite gender to have higher voice so that the music would be beautiful.

This is true. When we have practise yesterday, the music director, David Evans and the band were practised together with us. Our Vocalist trainer keep pushing us (guys) to high pitch, while David keep saying to us, “its ok, just sing an octave lower”. I felt much more relax after he said that. Anyway, this is my experience in Choir.

2002-10-16T15:58:00.000+10:00

Its has been almost a week since my last update. Ha! I think i am slack already, until Teryn curious about my blog today. hmm... think back about last week, beside I have nothing to do (because i still jobless mah!), nothing is really interesting.

Choir Practise
This gonna be very intersting... We going to sing top of our lung... I mean for guys! I can't believe that we guys can sing so high. Seriouse, i am amaze myself too. I just can't wait for this weekend because its gonna be an awesome weekend. Don't you think so?

Cell Group
Last week, we don't have any cell meeting but we dohave church training. Joined the class "Ministry Foundation", felt that I have so much to learn. hhmm... its really good. As for this week, we going to attend conference at sunny bank as cell group meeting. Its is something that we never do before as cell group, but trust me... its gonna be interesting.

Anyway, At library with Chris. Helping him do his research about "Cubism" Which I do not know what is that... But What can i help is just online and catalogy search. ha! May be I should try to uniderstand what is really about Cubism.

2002-10-11T13:39:00.000+10:00

Horror Movie WEEK
Next week would be the Queensland 2002. Dr. Tony Compolo would be the Man of the Night! As a choir member of this big event, I am very satisfied of what we had practised. Be honest, although we are not really well practise, we just wanna go out there and just share the good news of God. Friends! If you have nothing to do next week, 18th, 19th and 20th October¡K please there are heaps for you to join us.

Yesterday after the choir practise, we four of us went for supper, Rebecca, Chris, Ryan and myself. WE had a great night just company each other. KFC never bore for us because we like the original chicken wings¡K yum!

Anyway, for the past whole week, I have been watching horror movie¡K its kind of cool you know! Because there are no one (so far I know) like to watching this kind movie for that long of period. But guess what¡K! I felt asleep all those movie¡K because I am tired!!! Ha!
1. Bless the child
2. Red Rose
3. Monster Inc.
more to come!

2002-10-09T11:27:00.000+10:00

CityCare Homeless Appeal
Homeless appeal¡K this was the brilliant ideal from citycare. I was really impressed by what Steve and Gavin were doing for the homeless people. 1800 004 711 is the number we waited for the donation figure every hour. I am proud just being one of them. I know that I can¡¦t helped much on what they doing, but by just holding sign board on street ¡§Say Yes 2 City Care¡¨.

7:30am to 11am, then from 3pm ¡V 4pm, at these periods, I was under the sun doing my duty. No wonder that I am darker then before. When I came home at night¡K I feeling fever and just sunburn on my face. Although all this sunburn, tiredness, fever was painful thing, having a litter help to homeless was the most unforgettable event. I thank God that I am part of them.

Day spent with Sharon
Yesterday, spent time with Sharon and Chris. Sharon was A-Level student, she just seeking for university. I guess she had met the right person, because whatever information she needs, she got it. She was just comparing 2 universities UQ or QUT, already stress up herself. I guess this is the period when all overseas student been through before, so this is very normal.

Anyway, since we have the off peak saver for the day, we decided to go for city cat trip at Brisbane river. After had dinner that I cooked, we headed to UQ citycat terminal with Ryan¡¦s car. At first, it was fun at the city cat at 10pm, we got panic when we realised that the last trip would be 10:30pm. Right there and then, we already knew that we missed the last citycat back to UQ. Ha! Thank God that citycat attendant showed us how to get back to city.

We had a great night after all.

2002-10-06T18:58:00.000+10:00

Gold Coast Refreshing
Its has been a week after my last update of the blog. Still Today, no one can really explained why time fly so fast? Its already a week since i back from Melbourne trip. Come to think about it, I already get back to life that i used to have. It because this week its holiday for everyone at Uni or high school, the tourism and attraction places has been crowded with people. Since all my friends has been talking about their holiday... I should tell you too. Its funny that everyone started the trip on friday.

Anyway, Friday, clear sky... As me and my best mate planned to go Gold Coast with Candy and Monica (new friend, introduced by Candy). The gals were going for a time of refreshment, while we guys actually going for holidays! We stop and Habour Town (as usal for people to buy factory outlet stuff). I have to tell you that Monica is the first person who i got to know walked out from Nike shop after 5min. When we reach surfers, we couldn't find any accomodation to stay for overnight, not untill we drive pass this backpacker. We happily check it knowning that this is the place to stay over. But when we check out the next day... no one knew that it was Mardi Gas Accomodation. What is that...? ha! check it out yourself.

Spent time at The Spit were the most wonderful time for the whole trip. Just sitting down at the edge of the spit, hearing the splashing of the ocean and the breeze... I can totally forgetten about myself. I guess this is the best time to spend with God when you really tatolly connect to the nature.

Flu makes things out!
Last few days, I caught with flu and sick as well, probably because of that, my mood has been swinging like crazy. This is really bad to talked about... but what i really wanna to share is that through this whole week, I treated my friend really badly. Of course there are reasons... what I learned was that no matter what happened in friendship, we dare to take bold step and talk things out.

Friendship is something we need in life. I remember when my dad came to attend my graduation, he told me about his retirement. There are 4 things that he can't leave without it:
i) Wife, partner of life
ii) Finance, need for retirement so that still can enjoy life.
iii) House, owned it and dwell it, not spending life to pay the interest.
iv) Old Friend, especially best mate that can talk and spend time with when bore.
I can't ignore that friend is not important in life. Come back to topic, when i found my best mate, I would take my best time to spent time with. Of course there are some sweet time to spend with and sometime conflict of interest. I am talking about no matter how easy going person you are, there must be sometime that we have conflict of interest. If there are none... then this is really good. Anyway, having conflict between the friendship was such a hard thing to go through. There must involve 2 parties. But no matter which party you are... both got to have the willingness to forgive and to acceptthe forgiveness.

This happened to me. I used to know this topic about frindship really well, and i am sure everyone knows about this topic too... but when I am in the real position and real situation, this statement not just so real to me, but also something that i really cherrish about. I tend to appreciate more then before and I can gurantee that the friendship won't be the same again. Infact, we are more stronger and more hold on what these greatest gift that God had given to us.

2002-09-30T21:37:00.000+10:00

Ha! times fly... already 3 days back from Sydney, and yet... i still can't get back the life i used to have at brisbane. Sitting here, knowing that i still jobless.. (hahaha!) and probably a litter bit of disappointed, its that they are looking more qualified people, or I am not qualified for them.... hai...!!! The worse is that i dun even have monitor for my computer to work. So, thats probably make it worse of my days. I guess, nothing I can do.

Its already end of September, and tomorrow is 1st Oct. What i am going to do now??? The trip to Melbourne were so good because i had establish relationship woth friends. But there are still need to wait for assessment of my resume. I would say that it may be take more then 2 weeks before i would have call from those employer.

So, Prayer must be the only way ah...!

2002-09-28T11:12:00.000+10:00

ha! ha! Finally I came back to Brisbane... the sweet sweet home. AFter hour and a half flight, i am so tired. Yesterday, spending whole day walking at Paddy Market, and chinatown at Sydney after i check out the hotel. Carry my beg walk to train station to catch train to airport, i was so exsolted. My shoulder were so painful (carry backpack kind of beg). Remember walking down the starway to the platform, i nearly fell because of imbalance of my body. hai... but thank God that i didn't.

2 weeks went i was away, think back, it not just a trip for job seeking and sight seeing... i guess it a time for refreshing as well. I felt my spirit so fresh and ready to do God's work again. I have the most wonderful time after Ryan left me (Ryan went back to brisbane a week before me), what i am talking about is the time that I spent with God. Reading the book that i mention early before, it was such a moment that God refresh my spirit. There are so many time that prompted in my mind to pray for certain situation in my life. But I didn't.... hahahaa!! I will tell you why.

Pray is such a powerful tool. Everyone knows that, but what i really scare of is what will happen if my prayer been answered? In bible, said that when you ask then you shall receive. Sometime we just take it for grandted. I shall let you know, me myself also like that. I just ask anything that i want... I guess sometime it is good when God really put somethings that you asked on hold... wherelse... I would be in trouble.

2002-09-23T13:19:00.000+10:00

The Last Day at Melbourne
Yup! the last day at Melbourne. Its should be a night to be remembered. I think i should call up my friends and just to say bye. This morning wake up twice, i guess i am too excited to meet my dad and leave the room as soon as possible. If only if i can show you how my room look like, then you should know what i am tlaking about. At 4am, then at 6am, both awake by too warm underneath the sleeping.

Took my own sweet time packup my stuff. Got my space beg vuccum... then after an hour, i am ready to go.

Haven't got my lunch yet... and dunno where i am going to have my lunch. Still have 5 more hours to go to meet my dad, if only i can express out myself how excited I am, then you would know what i mean.

2002-09-22T17:47:00.000+10:00

TomYum.... YumYum...
I was actually did wrote something here... but it was deleted. Let me tell you why. I am at State Library of Victorior, well, State of Victorior Library have this kind of one click button needed to wait for 10 sec to load. ha! Nothing is better then Queensland State Library. Queensland is the best.

Spending whole day waiting for Ryan's parent to call. hhmm... because my future career may come from them! thats Why. Went to HOPE for service this morning and its really good. Seeing my friend, Wan Ping serve God with whole heartedly is the most happiest thing in my life.

Anyway, i dunno want to spend too much time on this STATE LIBRARY COMPUTER... too HI TECH.
Went to have dinner with Teng Wei at this Hong Kee restaurant. Its really nice and comfy. Ordered a Grilled Pork with fried egg on steam rice and TomYum soup. wah....

2002-09-21T16:53:00.000+10:00

The day that I spend time alone
Wake up this morning, knowing that yesterday i had the best night ever. My friend, who i came to melbourne for him... got save yesterday. My heart just jump with joy. My friend who is another high school friend of mine, were praying for him at CCM meeting. We jumping up and down, congrat him even though he has no ideal what had happened. I am so happy for this trip as it is so worthy after all.

Walking at Victorior Mrket for hour and a half, came back with tired foot. Then continue read my book: Smulgger, by Brother Andrew. This is my 24th bday gift from group of my friend. I was so anxiuse top finish this book. Just want to know what will happen.

2002-09-20T15:37:00.000+10:00

Ryan's Flight Delay
Last for Ryan, 20th Sept. hai... time fly so fast. Sitting alone at library now, while ryan is at airport. His flight was 4 hour delay to 7pm. This is so sad. I am just going to think what i am going to do tonight as we always trying to keep ourselve occupied by watching VCD, song... hai...

Well, I guess got to get my life going... Today is sunny and I was just hang around at city after dropping ryan at Spencer Street (where the skybus - bus to airport stop). Later at evening, meeting my friend Wan Ping for dinner then going to their cell group. Its kind of excited because visiting people cell group. Anyway, hope that i will keep myself occupied.

2002-09-19T14:36:00.000+10:00

Great Ocean Road
hmm... very tired now. At library, just came back from 12 apostle. Let me tell you all the stuff. Man! it were so so fun.

Yesterday after library, we just went to check out the car rental, who knows that we got a car rented for just $60, include insurance. What car? Its Holden Barina, done 28,500km, auto (no manual available). Yup! booked it on 4:30pm, so at that 2 and half hours before 4:30pm, we went to buy our food supply cost total travel through and back is about 8 hours.

Picked up the car, then we just depart from Melbourne city. While we drive, always remind ourselves with "Keep left turn right". Stop at McD for dinner at 6pm then we just head up to 12 Apostle, passing by Colac (small town, short cut to 12 apostle that will joined back to Great Ocean Road), Galibern, Lavers Hill, then 12 apostle.

When we reach there, its about 8:30pm, cool and windy. The temperture in the car desboard shown 5.5degree and the car just like turbulance. We quickly jump out from the car and we find ourselve a shelter... man! I can't imagine if we have no shelter. The wind so strong that even the car shake when it is parked. We Meet this guy from Germen, who travelling from brsiabne down to melbour and will back to Alice spring. He is our friend for that night. About 10pm, we get ready to sleep by placing our sleeping beg on the prefect spot on the car seat. Its was a very scary night... wind... car shake... mirror fog up.... the form from the sea blew up to the car park which 200m away from the cliff. That was the best travel plan that I ever had before.

Planned to wake up at 4am to see sunrise... ended up... we kept snopzing till 6am because no sunlight. Anyway, we final got up and washed up... The Gremen friend joined us for this sunrise at 12 apostle. wah.... so so so cool... we were walking agianst the ocean wind... blowing through our frozen face... I am so happy to see these rock called as 12 apostle sitting on the sea side of the ocean. I told myself, "finally... finally... this is the one.... this is the beuty of what creator had made."

Heading back to car and ready for the journey back to Melbourne. Drove along the Greaty Ocean Road... feeling just great because I am driving beside the ocean.... the waves, mountain and sea.... just make me feel so so great.

Now, i still haven't recovered from the excitement... hardly to express out because i am in the mood of sleepy. I am so sleepy but yet... the excitement!!!! wah!!!

2002-09-18T11:52:00.000+10:00

New day
The new fresh day... cloudy but its good.... not as cool as yesterday. Me and ryan are here (RMIT library) every morning... this the only source of computer access. Haven't plan what gonna do today.... just need to check car rent (planning the trip to great ocean road) and check out hotel available for ryan's parents...

The day 3 and day 4 video is available now... :-) hope you enjoy the video as much as we enjoy our trip here at Melbourne...

2002-09-17T21:12:00.000+10:00

Job Hunting
The second part today... I am at library, 8:57pm. Yup! jjust company friend here to do some job hunting. Man! Why job hunting always so hard to get. People always says that we should never give up job hunting... because we never know... the one that we send next would be the wan. But really... I am just at the border.... Not many resume I sent today... hai.......
Melbourne University
We went to Melbourne University. People always gave comment that Melbourne U is nicer then UQ... eerr.... i am I dun agreed because it just like city campus... I mean what can you really do if your campus is in the city??? There are not enough space for student to really sit down on field for lunch when the space already so limited! Anyway, but i am agree that there are some buildiong structure is nicer then UQ. Some part of the building (most of them are colleges) was actually those 18th century building... crafted with lots of shape and sizes. There are one part of the building... on the roof top, there are these human head that straight out from the building... and the neck were so so long. Basically it just look like the rain strom drain that connected from the roof. The neck is like that.... connected from the head that straight out from the building then connected back to the floor. Remembered that i was just make fun of it by just tickle the neck.
St.Kilda
Yeah... met Ryan's friend Jeans, she is nice and she is sweet. We went for lunch and dinner togather. Then, followed with 20minutes of tram to St. Kilda (the only beach that really nice at Melbourne). We were almost frozen by strong cool wind from ocean. The trip is good, beside just getting to know Jeans, we actually bring her a step higher to know God. Keep praying for her.

Bought a new jacket (was $200 now $89) and a new pants (was $59.95 now $29.95) ... Yup!!! gonna change my image... detail to be shown on the day after i go back to Brisbane... Let make the International Culture Shock... really shock you guys by what I am wearing.... :-)
Melbourne photo.... see the link beside.

2002-09-17T11:35:00.000+10:00

Dinner at ShangHai Restaurant
hi everyone... hows your day? Melbourne is terrible. I was wet the whole day and my shoes were almost soak with water. People always say that Melbourne weather is wire... now i really can feel it now. Yesterday were so wet and windy.... and as for today.... it sunny and cool too. Me and ryan nearly couldn't wake up from sleep because it was so nice just to wrap yourself and keep yourself warm underneath the sleeping beg.

Yesterday were the best day, i met with my friend who i had lost contact with 6 years ago. We catch with each other, had dinner at this shanghai restaurant. We talk about everything, we got shocked when we updated each other what had happen to our friends. Among all this... I am happy for her as well because she also got save and she is a really activite christian. We share about love of God, our testimony and etc.

Yup! We are really in deep sleep yesterday (too tired) and be honest... We actually didn't edit the video for day 3,... but what we had promised... we will do it.

Anyway, this is day 2 video. MELBOURNE VIDEO

2002-09-16T13:27:00.000+10:00

Raining day at Melbourne
Ha! Staying at Melbourne not as fun as staying at Brisbane. Be honest, people here are not as friendly as we do at brisbane. We talk, we communicate even though you don't know each other. But here is very strange... may be i am just judging as a whole but this is what i felt anyway,... like today we had this special lunch called "Grand Special", just for $5.50 with crispy chicken, BBQ pock and some vegie... It really cheap but they were so so so rude. They drop the change without apologise.... so bad.

Today, just a bit wire... raining and so cool, but i like it. If you ask me how i feel this weather... it just as same as the brisbane winter.

Every night, we and Ryan will try to sort the photo that we took everyday and make it into simple and nice video.... its really really funny... but we like it so much. Its just like share the fun that we have at Melbourne to the friends that we love at home (brisbane)... ya mah... the chinese idiom said "we bear and share the burden and happiness as we are friends togather"

well... this is the website for the video... its not too big... but just nice for you to keep. MELBOURNE VIDEO

cya! and catch with me tomorrow!

2002-09-14T14:17:00.000+10:00

Sunny Melbourne
Yup! Already at Melbourne this morning. Me and Ryan took off 6:25am from brisbane. Well, i need to tell you this that this is my first time taking Virgin Blue. hmm... its not bad its 737-800 plane. Its got very comfortable seat and leather ler! But something is missing... everything on plane is not free, i mean drink is not free! Soft drink with 300ml cost $2.50. ahh... thats why its so cheap!

Anyway, once we landed, we were rush to the place that we staying. Its actually a shop house. We stay at the back of this florist. The landlord of the house is the owner of the florist. We rented the room for $80 per week. Its got everything include bed, mirror, cupboard... but not pillow though. We were scouting around and know that there are 2 toilet in this premise. Indoor and outdoor! Man! this going to be so so cool if you do your business early in the morning. ahh... how i iwsh i can put up some photo.

After that we had this turkish bread stuff with chicken, sort of chicken kebab at Victorior Market, which located just across the house. It full of surprises because the market setting just like malaysia setting. Those "pasar malam" but they are under the roof lar. You can get everything from clothing to eating. hhmm... then we jump in to a tram. Now, talking about the tram... they jump in and out like nobody business... we are actually going to chinatown but then we decided to took tram because its much more nearer. Cost money??? yah.... but we got this 2 hour ticket which we can use it any time at any tram to anywhere between that 2 hour.

The chinatown here is huge man! Haven't got a chance to really sit down and enjoy the beutiful creation of these "china-man" because we are actually really tired. Anyway, i am at RMIT library now, just checking some email before head back to SLEEP! yup!!! sleep....... then later tonight! we going to Crown... the casino!

2002-09-11T11:52:00.000+10:00

Sept 11
Sept 11, today is the really wire day because there are thousand of people die. Think back a year ago, I was sitting front of TV, watching the live news. People all over the place talked about it. It is really scary moment and there is something inside my heart asking when would be our turn!!! The feeling still there and just can't be explainable. Remembered that night, i was awake from sleep a phone call, told that Twin tower was under attacked. That moment I thought he just kidding, but when turned on TV, The joke became true. Its just unbelievable.

The Innocent killed yesterday,
We have to stand firm today,
We wait and pray,
To claim the promise day.

Prepare Melbourne, Here I come
Spending whole morning updated and editing my resume. Then sent out fewer resume that I qualified with. Its funny that all employer required 2 years of experience when I have no opputurnity to start my career!!! ha!

The friendship go cool
How do you feel when friendship gone cool? I have no ideal! May be this time would be the trial for me!

2002-09-10T10:17:00.000+10:00

Its has been a week now, that i did update my blog. There are so many reason to be told, monitor broken down, hardly get access to internet... but above all this, i have been wanted to update every single day. So, since today i have nothing to do... i shall update my blog.

My mailbox was flooded with email... just knew that these few days, i missed the exciting email all over my cell group. No wonder that i missed out the interesting topic that had been going around the cell. Read lots of encouragement email... which somehow awaken my inner human being.

Past few days, i have been quite busy. Church conference ( which i did attend but helped out atthe refreshment), accompany chris down to coast (Pick up sharon to brisbane). And its because i am doing nothing at all time... something always pop up at any time, thats why i reckon i am actually more busier then i used to study...!!! I am glad because in this way, i won't be worry about anything, and in everything i do, i actually do it whole heartedly.

Sometime i got kranky when i have nothing to do (like really anything pop up) poor chris that he had to company me with that kranky mood. I know its really bad, But seriousely... I haven't been told chris that i actually trying to relax more!

2002-09-04T16:22:00.000+10:00

Prepare to help
Spent afternoon at Chris's lab Griffith University It is fun to see all this equipment on the table camera, light box and these rotating desk... Yup! I came in to help his assignment, well until now. He hasn't got anything to be help out. Anyway, iwhile i wait for his call, i just surfing the net. I used to have this litter icon on this page and telling me the statistic of every single person who visited this page. From where you are, to what kind of browser. Basically just give me an ideal of how many people had visited my page. But i can't get the icon back. I had tried to get back the html code from the provider, but i just can't.

I dunno what we going to do later, but this weekend we might going down to coast as sharon (told you about her few days ago) coming back from Melbourne tomorrow. So, Chris will spend some time with her. Just planning to go to Lamington park, tree top walking, Burra Binna, Nature Bridge, wine tasting... yup! Need to tune in with the nature after living in city.

Got my graduation photo. So, i have to choose what to develop. I can't believe that a piece of photo (38cm x 28cam) cost AUD$55, and the protrait (50camx40cm) cost AUD$88. Get headache from just deciding what to develop and size. Anyway, i hope that i be able to decide before this week so that by 2 weeks time, i will get my photo.

2002-09-03T10:54:00.000+10:00

Swinging
Yesterday, i had a very bad day... swinging mood is not a very good thing. I know that people around you may suffer because of my mood swinging, but how about me myself??? I don't know what happen.... what i know is that every morning, once i wake up... i have to think of something to do... i just felt its really waste of time by just do nothing. Oh God.... i need help man!

I miss my sister so much. She at hawaii now, i have no contact number nor her address. Email wasn't reply because she just there less then a week. I wonder how she doing now... i wonder how she coupe her life there... i wonder She will get use to the enviroment... I wonder and wonder and wonder........ God! just guide her.

Wake this morning, trying claiming myself. hai... so far i am doing fine. Well, if worse come to worse, i will just walk across to indooroopilly shoipping complex and help aunty roseline in her Kenny's Cardiology shop. But really, i thank God that i will spend time later at BCC helping citycare.

ok... pray for me,.... i need job... and i need things to do not require my finances.

2002-08-31T11:26:00.000+10:00

The day not to forget
ahh... time passes so fast that one blinked of eyes... everything no longer stay the same. The concert already one day over. Its was great, although we had things that not really in organised but really praise God that we managed to get it through. We have very good response from the audiences. I am really glad that i was in the group. We tried our best to bring out what we really wanted it to be: touch the soul. After the concert, we band member spent time at Chris house for dinner, we talked about the concert. We hope that next time, if the opputurnity come again, we should be more organise and hopefully we will do better then this time. But most of all, I am thankful for those who came to suppose us.

Yesterday, was chris's b'day. Spent dinner with him at Mongolian BBQ restaurant. It was great, laughter, joke, .... will never forget this. Something happened, the restaurant don't accept eftpos, so i have to get the excuses and ran out to get cash (not that far just 2 door down the road). Meeting the rest of friends at sunny bank coffee club. I found it is not really hard to hide all the plan for surprise, after all. Chris really surprise that there are more people coming at that time even though its really 1 hour and 15min sitting there at coffee club.

2 hours of chatting at home on phone with chris. Its good because we straingthen up each other, and make ourselves live life right and continue to encourage each other fire for God.

All these things that happened was great. But as for my feeling, the most thankful is that i able to show my appreciation of friendship on his birthday. Heard that Chris was very happy of things that happen on his birthday. Hope that this friendship won't go away. Lastly i send my best wishes to him for all dreams and ministry to come through.

2002-08-28T12:20:00.000+10:00

Let the clock decide the job
How long more i have to wait just to do NOTHING??? aiya...

Yesterday was very tired. Practicing all the song from 6pm to 12pm. There only break that we have is... sent teryn home (just 15min). Yup! the concert is tomorrow and we are actually not really ready to go. But everything we have to do by faith... you know what i mean. I was surprise that i have to lead couple of songs. ha! wanna to know... you have to come to the concert. 7:30pm, 29th August, Abel Smith.

There is one thing that pondering in my mind before i end the day... The time management. I have 5pm practice this afternoon and 7:30pm cell group. I can't skip the practise because it is tomorrow... I can't skip cell group because i am sharing... So... what should i do and the practice is going till late. Well, may be i should going to practice after my cell at 9pm. What do you think???

This morning wake up, remember that my new landlord is coming to inspect the house (my unit has been sold to this P&G family). Well, as usual, pack my stuff, tidy up the house (not much to tidy up anyway, because it always has been clean :p ), spray something cleaner on toilet bowl and etc. At sharp 11am, my door bell buzz. They came in with this professional house inspector. He came with a stick, torch, digi cam. In the begining, i though this guy was just nothing but looking around and open my carbenet one by one. But then i found out that he is house inspector.

He told the buyer of everything from the cracking to un-even floor. He is so... good. Everything that he command, he took photo as evidence. Yup! Found there are some minor problem... I just know that i am actually staying in unit with very good condition. I mean in term of the property.

2002-08-26T15:04:00.000+10:00

The Authentic Asian Chicken Dishes
Saturday night, Chris housewarming. We had a geat fun. Almost 20+ ppl were there. We had lots of chicken in different cooking, gravy to oily and from spicy to salty. Ah... the nasi lemak was the best! Because it's me who cooked it. :) After that we had a preview for the Shine concert. Man! Candy, rache and me were singing after the spicy food. We were so scared that we will burp... chris and ryan were playing guitar. Finally we found bass guitar player Daniel, he is good. Ryan wanted to playing bass but i think we another accoutics make the music much more different. That why I really want him to play accoutics. We had a great fun just singing circular song, especially chinese song. Dunno that annie and rebecca can sing very well.

Yesterday, got up 4:30am just to pick up chris's friends, Sharon (esther's sister) at airport. Went for breakfast with esther (friend of chris) and friends at pancake manner. It was a groomy day and i forgetten about my jumper! ha! almost become ice cude when we walked from the airport to the shell station, coz got my car parked there. Too bad that sharon decided to go with her esther at gold coast. So, we have to make a trip down to gold coast these day.

Keeping awake during the sermon is the most hardest thing to do. Yup! you can keep yourself awake by doing something else, but what if you were so tired and your mind just want to sleep. That why we called them "praying" when they falling asleep during the sermon because they look like in the praying.

Had dinner of all left over food from the housewarming. Man! its was so full... but its really nice. yum....

2002-08-24T09:10:00.000+10:00

The begin of the new chapter
"Its a beutiful day.... yeah...!" Clear sky and the weather so nice to sleep in. But i have to bring my parent to city. I can't believe that they are leaving this afternoon. As my housemate told me, just felt that they just arrive... hhmm.....

My graduation was great. Rushing here and there to take photo. Preparing the dress and graduation hat. I have no ideal how to wear the gaun, but thank God that i have friend taught me about it when i was at uni. One day star.... ahh.... lots of photo taken. The ceremony was so boring... the "big people" (chancellor and senate....) they were giving speech... and it was so long. There is one moment i was falling asleep. But they speech was very encouraging. if i would really pay attention on them.

There is one very interesting thing to share. People all over were discussing whether should the string on the graduation hat on left or right. If left means not yet confirm you graduate, if right mean your already confirm. And confirmation is not from uni.... but the confirmation from chancellor. So they were sharing that the string should be on left side and when the chancellor shake your hand, then he will shift the string to right sde by saying" i confirm that your have fulfil the course requirment and eglible to graduate". After all this arguement.... the conclusion is just put it on left because...... everyone else is doing that. So when we were in hall.... we were asked to stand up and doing the confirmation thing....we were hoping the shifting of the string.... but it did not happen... aiya.....

It was so interesting to see them how they bow to pay respect to the chancellor... hold your front hat with your right hand and just bow a litter bit. That how they bowto each other. We were taught how to receive and chake hand with chancellor.

2002-08-22T07:31:00.000+10:00

Yesterday was just a nice day to pass. Went shopping with friends at Indroo... i always wanted to buy the flovour popcorn, and yesterday was the day. We tried all the flavour, from savoury to the sweeten... from roast chicken, sexi maxi, cheese cheese, BBQ, sour cream to honey, mecadamia deluxe, butter scoth, double chocolate... ahh... I was surprise i bought one large, got another large pack for free. hhmm... they never put up the sign or other symbol that saying they have promotion. Well, they might only have one reason... Our look!

Got up just at 4:30am. Coz i have to pick up my parent at 5am. hhmm.... i should gone later then what i expected. Next, i might just arrive at airport 45min after the plane touch down. I has been so long that i didn't see my parent. 6months! Man! That was a long time. Thank God i still remember how they look like especially early in the morning.

ok mate! Today is my day... the last and the begin next chapter. Beside graduation ceremony in mind, there is still one more thing to think of.... the same question...
WHAT I SUPPOSE TO DO NOW!!!!

2002-08-20T23:53:00.000+10:00

Chicken Welfare
Well, I am not free tomorrow so, thought that it would be better if i drop a line today. Yup! today is good day. Had lunch with David and Shung Ching. Shung Ching leaving to Malaysia for holiday. Man! How i wish one day that i can go home and take a short holiday!!! I will then eat up all the food... breath in all the air.

Went to church. helped out city care. I just got to know that City Care actually having the sizzler BBQ for the needy every Tues and Thurs. Man! I really thank God that i am in the church like this because we had never forget to bless those who needed. I should encourage more people to join as well... Had Brodie Chicken for dinner. I don't understand about this CHICKEN business, why everyone trying to bring out the different flavour of chicken. I mean no matter what you do with that CHICKEN, the CHICKEN still the chicken and end up still in our stomach. Really... among all these Chicken (KFC, RED ROASTER, BRODIES, KENNY ROGER...) which one you vote for the best chicken in town??? May be you should consider the size of the chicken they serve... it does matter man!!! Czz my friend rather choose the bigger size then those litter chick.

Have you ever sing... i am sure everyone can sing. But sing till people actually encourage you to sing in band??? It never happen in my life before. Sometime it is funny that whether my singing is good (meet the standard as singer), or they will just shortage of people. I really can't tell that i am in that standard or not... but really... if you think that i am as good as a singer... or may be anyway i can improve... tell me alright! :-)

2002-08-20T11:18:00.000+10:00

Pancake for brekky
Had homemade pancake for brekky, with butter and honey!!! yum... of course i did myself. The weather just nice to sleep in but i can't... i hardly sleep again last night, i have no ideal what really poundering me. I guess i need to see doc already!

2 more days until the day for my graduation ceremony. I think i get more and more excited now. Knowing that this gonna be a big thing but i have to keep claim myself so that all the arrangement won't be mess up. Actually i am worry about my shirt, its raining today and i am scare that it won't be dry by thursday. Please, i need sunshine. My parent are coming. Ahh,...... got to start clean up my house already... this is the time showing them that i am not just finish study, but i had grown up and be able to take of myself... the best way to show this, it the cleaniness of my house. I got to start cleanning the kitchen, pantry, fridge, toilet, bedroom, wardrobes, lodge.....

Talking to my ex in msn just now... she is really nice gal. What really can't keep us togather is the distance, LDR (long distance relationship) required strong relationship, faith and trust. Why i said it hard because when i need her for comfort... she was thousand miles away. Seriousely, i speak through my experince, if can, don't ever try step in to this relationship. But if you already in, just hang on... because you never know the joy would be so big that you can conquer them. I am not talking about we lack of faith... but the time for waiting might be long. Planning to stay at aussie to work and she not really wanna to come over. She has to take of her grandma and mum as well... she such a lovely gal. We had been separate for 2 years now, and i really miss her lots. She always encouraged me things that i do especially in ministry. Not only full support, but sometime, she choose to do something for church togather rather then spent time togather alone. hmm... hardly to get this kind of gal nowadays. Probably that the reason why i am still single. :-)

2002-08-19T12:50:00.000+10:00

Help from Far
Man! the side link actually got help from my dear friend, Joseph Chia. He is an IT student. Smart, Good looking (self proclaim), single still, but if you wanna get to know him.... hhmm..... most welcome. Not get to know him for intension of boyfriend coz he already booked. Booked to a really sweet, beautiful and pretty lady. He deserve her because he is caring, kind and helpful. Well, be honest, sometime a bit quite forgetful but thats doesn't matter right!!! Just hope that he always remember who is he going out with!!!

2002-08-19T11:08:00.000+10:00

Monday Suck
"M O N D A Y S U C K suck, monday suck, monday suck (sing in mickey mouse theme song).

Monday morning, when everyone else heading to work or study and knowing that you going to be bore... that is the longest morning that i ever have. Done some cleaning and laundry... everything finish and yet its still not yet 11am. I have to get myself a job asap. I can't stand this anymore, but remember my aussie friend told me that may be God wants me to have a short break before the "big thing" coming up. Well, i guess some how its really true.

I suppose to receive a call from friend yesterday night, so as he had promised. hai... how should they be reminded do not made any promise if they are not sure for that ? ? ? Anyway, be honest, woke up this morning, i was in a deeply sad... some how i can't share this. Its has been bother me quite sometime already. May be living alone, less social and just be as godly as we can, attend church... might be good after all.

2002-08-18T22:46:00.000+10:00

Long lost Singlehood
Its has been long since i update my blogspot. Just came back from Jeff wedding. Can't believe that he got married. Remember the time when he broke the news, I not even know that he has a galfriend. Things abit rush, but really, thank God that everything is over. Through my skill... i was asked to decorate their wedding car. Man! in the beginning, i throught it going to be tough because his parent insist wanted red to everyting. hhmm.... Jeff like silver car? how can silver goes well with red??? well, later this weekend, just found out that it is actually dark brown statesman car, so, i choose marron ribbon. I actually stayed over night at Lung house yesterday, so that this morning, i would be able to decorate the car early before they pick up the bride. hhmm... Was rushing the ribbon late night till 1am and got to wake up 6:30am. Man! and i can't sleep last night. Its was really terrible. Nearly fall sleep in the service this morning.

The wedding dinner was not too bad. The interesting part is that we all of us got to go for cruise because most of Jeff and Su Ann's relative from overseas. So, its was actually a very good ideal... but turn out, half of the cruise people were falling asleep. hai.... what a waste. During the dinner, had 2 g;ass of red wine and i lost count glasses of baileys i had. Man! Our table was the best, well, you can said that it is the most noisy wans. We had a good laugh, joke and really fun. What i can say that i had a wonderful time togather with my mates.

Just few days before my graduation. I am starting getting excited now. Well, when you think about it, just a ceremony. Yeah, i know, its once a life time, but that not what i really excited about... what i excited about is what is my next chapter of my life??? Would i be here??? work??? or just be a dump boy, doing nothing!!! hmm... My parent are coming and that really good because they actually choose to come here rather then sending my sis off (she is going to hawaii for study a week later after my graduation). Well... that their choice anyway. I am just a good boy.... :)

ok mate! i am really tired now. Hope that you enjoy my journal. Cya!

2002-08-14T01:22:00.000+10:00

QLD vs NSW
hai... what a day! Went to springbrook with rachel and en qi. ITs a long journey, binna burra, lots of lookout, winery, bushwalking and more. Man! i like this thing, just that after all these, i would be very very tired,.... like what i am now. Felt like i have a sore eye, a huge eye beg on my eye. Well, i think this actually accumulated from the resort weekend as well.

Went to tomyum just now. Be honest, thats is the best place i can find thai food. My favourite dish, tomyum chicken with rice. yahhooo.... I was driving when we were on our way home because that 2 ladies were so tired. Meet Soney at freestyle for dessert. Actually Enqi miss her sourcy chocolate pudding, but they dun have that. hai... too bad. enqi won't have chance to taste that delicious dessert again unless she continue stay on.

Then, we went to milton coffee club to meet another group of friends, its annie's b'day. We found ourselve actually part of a big group there. more then 20ppl were there. I always against computer games. Its not i don't like computer game, but i will not let be as part of my life. Its such a waste of time. I hope my statement said: i rather do something which more benefit to mylife then just wasting time to play games. will help those ppl who addicted to compuyter games like Chris, John and.... the rest. Wonder when Chris will really understand how important to treat computer games not as part of life!!!

2002-08-13T01:00:00.000+10:00

Sleeping Pretty
Sleeping... sleeping is the most wonderful thing to do in life. Infact, we spent one third of life time just to SLEEP! Amazing ah...! Sleeping... we can just forgotten about everything, your work, problem,..... but when you sleep with wrong position... that really annoying. YOu don't just can't sleep, but back pain, neck pain, ....

I felt so sleepy today even though i didn't do much. Do some grocery shopping with chris. hai... I guess it just because i have nothing to do, jobless. Thats why i am so lazy today.

2002-08-11T22:57:00.000+10:00

Young Adult Resort Weekend
Yeah… just back from resort weekend. I was pumped up with gas… full of energy. I got to tell you what really happen in the resort weekend.

Ryan, Chris, Lennon and me were in the same car. After packed up our thing, we heading towards Sunshine Coast (app. 120km away from CBD). I got to tell you… the trip there were boring because every single one of them was sleeping and I alone was a wake… coz I am driving. Coral Beach Resort was the place we stayed, it a tropical site feeling coz it full of palm tree along the pathway. I like it very much. We stay in this 2 stories unit, with 3 bedrooms and 2 bathrooms. Unit 31, I was sharing room with Ryan, Lung and Clay was my housemate.

We had a fun night, had fish and chips as dinner. We had supper as well after the sermon. While we on our way home from unit 37 (where the supper is) we were think want to jam. So we did, end up there are more and more people join us. Man! I tell ya, we had a awesome night just spent time together, sing song till 3am.

Catching people falling sleep in the sermon was the “thing” that kept me awake all the time. Ryan, and Ai Chee were the champion in these. Had BBQ for lunch and Pizza and Magnum for dinner. Hmm… trust me, it a really wired combination. We headed to Park after the night service. We continue our private meeting. Ha! I hope I can put up some photo…

Hardly wake up this morning coz I had not enough sleep. Hai… it’s was so hard just to keep myself awake during the sermon, so I got myself a mentos. It helps. Had group photo after the service. While on our way home, I was so disappointed by not having KFC for my lunch. Man! The shop just across the road… but it is across the freeway. So I have no way to get my KFC, since I am faithful KFC fans, I rather wait till I reach home.

Overall, this resort weekend away is a moment to catch with my personal faith after the Hillsong trip. God spoke to me in very different ways. When I really think about who I am today… I won’t be who I am today if I am not a Christian 5 year ago. It is because He had changed me so much and so real that I can’t stop loving Him. What I can tell you is that each of us are filled with spirit, passion and vision.

Now here is the hard work… we should maintain the flame tat burning. Do not let it off because if it is off… we got to start from beginning again.

2002-08-08T11:59:00.000+10:00

Car Foreman
Yesterday, spent whole day helping ryan, chris's housemate to do some car maintainence. I was helping him to paint the car, interestingly need to brush it after spray. After that we rest for a while before we go for training class at church. I was alone for an hour waiting before the training class start because ryan and chris went to had dinner. $6 steak with big serving of salad, i guess it is really worthy. Anyway, when i was alone, i started to pick thing in my beg, found chris's digi cam. So i play with it. Dun get me wrong, i always play with that digi cam and chris allow me too, because we togather do research on this digi cam on how to get more nicer pic. Yup! while i play with it, i accidently formatted the memory. Contain 44 pictures, most of the pictures were the time we walking to indooropilly bridge. I felt so bad about it. Ended up, the whole night keep say sorry to chris because i felt very very very...... bad. I promise i will help him to retake all the picture again if possible.

Went to freestyle after the training, group of 20 with 2 separate table. Its very good just to catch with each other. Spending most of the time talking about how camera works with Suez, Ai qi joined later.

Wake up this morning felt so restless... probably i got really disappointed with my bank account....!!! :)

2002-08-07T10:31:00.000+10:00

Trying to put on some photo on this site, but i failed. Ha! Got my address on Chris's Journal. I must seek advice. Woke up this morning, disappointed when got to know that things goes wrong again. May be God was trying to tell me something... I dunno! So, did cancelled all my appointment and stay at home.

2002-08-07T02:46:00.000+10:00

Didn't do much today, I would be staying at home if I didn't send sms to Chris and ask him what is he doing after his class. He reply and asked me to shown him where is commenwealth bank at indooroopilly. Ahh.... how come he don't know where its located.

Shopped at Kmart for awhile with ryan, andrew, aaron and friends. Then decided to go to Mitre 10 coz Chris and ryan were looking for cloth hanger. After that me and Chris had a long walk to Indooroopilly bridge. We had great time walking there... i guess kind of exercise for us. Chris brought his camera along, took lots of photo, hopfully all these photo would work for whatever purpose it is... Very funny thing... we 2 spent more then 10min trying to across this busy street when we heading back. I guess what already pampert with pedestrian traffic light. We used to walk across the street without any problem when we were at Malaysia...

Claymation... not a new words for me when Chris has to complete his assignment. We spent time trying out to make this model - gorilla. But this silly guy destroyed whatever i did, except one... the leg... I dun think he release that pair of leg, i make wan....

Falling aslepp while watching TV. At home now, Writing the last line at 2:45am. Good Night!

2002-08-05T23:23:00.000+10:00

First day of a week fasting was not so bad. Knowing that I need food, but I have to get this through. Living in hunger, not even eats anything today. From previous experience, the first 3 days of fasting was the worse, but I know with God’s grace… I can carry through this.

Receive a call early this morning, Rachel was asking whether want to go to Harbor Town – factory warehouse at Gold Coast. Without thinking I just agree because I really have nothing to do then just sitting at home. Got things organized and we went there with Chris and En Qin – Rachel’s friend from London.

Strawberry farm was the place we stopped. Feeding the animal and visit our long distance friend, Morgan. As usual, the first stop at Harbor Town was Nike warehouse. I can’t believe that there are so many things were on discount, too bad that I have not enough money to buy. As for Chris, he found the perfect size of pair of shoes but no color that he wants to. May be that shoes was not meant to be.

When we on our way home, we stop by Yatala Pie. Ryan, Chris’s housemate decided to rent DVD for tonight. So, three of us, walking in cool down to video shop nearby and rented 3 movies: Skull 2, Crazy Beautiful and 15 Minute. Finished 2 movies already, so now just taking time to write this down.

Had an arguement with Chris, its just very silly thing but i just can't understand why people like to fight against me with statement. I hate people who like to play around with words and sentences. Telling me that he learn these from friends who is lawyer... oppss! Is he did it for purpose or trying to tell me that he can't be easy to defeat. Well, i dun care all this, what i care about us whether he trusts what i said or not. Friendship is about trust...! Where is the trust that i am talking about here. Should we turn against your friends and start to use "lawyer skill" against your friend ??? ??? ???

2002-08-04T23:51:00.000+10:00

Have you ever felt that so lazy until you just don’t want to do anything. This whole afternoon, I was just sitting on my “brand new” cough, doing nothing. After helping Teryn get away from her unfaithful landlord, I just felt dun wan to do anything. Lazy, lazy and lazy... lazy to do something.

Sunnie, Joyce and Rachel were at my place for the whole afternoon. We had a good time chatting. It was so funny that Sunnie, who is aussie, started to speak like Asian. I guess she hang around with us too much. She is a great friend of us, she is missionary and had done lots of work for the kingdom.

I suppose go coffee with Rachel because her friend is here from London. But funny thing is that Lennon called me up and said that he was very bored. I never receive call from him complaining he is in the boredom. Anyway, I actually arranged to go out together to have coffee too bad that I don’t have transport, so everything have to cancel.

Here I am, at Chris’s place again… just few houses down the street. I am actually dying of boredom, that’s why I am here. After watching TV – total recall, Chris doing his work now and I am just going to finish my journal. Today is just a normal day to live on, waiting anxiously for tomorrow to come.

2002-08-03T22:40:00.000+10:00

Just start a new personal journal today. Actually I was inspired by my friends because they have their own personal journal on net, well, I guess I should start one as well since I found it is really interesting when sharing my life to people, especially those who are not around you.

Woke up today knowing that Rachel going to drop by after she drop her car for service. We spent near 2 hours sitting in front of TV watching Commonwealth Games. Never know that cycling has these interesting rules. After picked up the car, we went to Chris’s house because we actually going to wash her car. Well, to be honest, we have a great time just washing car together.

Meeting another group of friends to buy guitar, scouting around the area and finally he bought the classical guitar. They invited us for dinner at their place, too bad that I have to be the chief. I thought I am the guest! Anyway, I can’t deny that I am better cook then them, that’s why I was teaching them, but end up I am doing the cooking, not for showing… but for them to learn the style of cooking.

After dinner, here am I, at Chris’s house – just moved in few days ago. Having him around me, just like I am worry free. Not because we are “lover”… but we understand each other. We took time to talk out things, share out our life and tough time. Nothing is better then having my best mate beside me when I am actually oversea and away from family. Really, I cherish him a lot.